Choosing a Spiritual Path!
September 4, 2013
Little did I know what I had asked of myself, when I reached a certain point in my life, in wanting to know my Truth, my Path, my reason for being here. We go through so many things in this life to find ourselves, understand our journey and integrate that within to create that idealised something that will make us whole. And after a lot of tripping, stumbling and sometimes blindly finding apparent dead ends, life shows a gift, a light at the end of a long tunnel to give us encouragement, hints at an end, a push to finally gain an understanding for what we had been searching for.
It was when I realised that those bits and pieces were there, that I really wanted to go further and try to understand the why. There was definitely something there. I knew that because of the ‘things’ that were beginning to happen in my life. The synchronicities, the events, the knowing of things that were increasing as time went on. I wanted to understand so that I could apply this to who I was and how I gave from that place within.
So I decided I ‘needed’ some assistance because I really wanted to know. After some searching I chose my assistant and went out and bought a lovely piece of Moldavite to help me to ‘listen’ during meditation or a dream state and better perceive just what spirit was giving me and how I could use that information to be in a better place. At the time I did not fully ‘know’ how it would help me, I just researched as much as I could and it appeared to resonate in what I was trying to do.
Moldavite meaning:
This highly treasured stone is widely effective in metaphysical practice. It accelerates one’s spiritual path. It evolves the spirit.
Some uses of Moldavite are:
- Clears blockages
- Awakens the intelligence of the heart
- Disconnects one from unhealthy attachments
- Makes dreams more vivid and meaningful
- Increases synchronicities
- Spiritual catalyst
Sources of Moldavite:
Moldavite is found around the Bohemian Plateau in the Czech Republic, and is believed to be the result of an ancient meteorite impact.
WORD OF WARNING: I can put this here now to help any that want to follow, but as I said in the first paragraph, little did I realise in what I had asked of myself. The strength of this stone took me a little off guard to say the least and the impact of what I had asked was a lot bigger than I had realised. I had affectively asked spirit to ‘open’ the shutters, I was ready to look inside to see the truth and in that understanding, give from that place.
I did not realise that I had just asked spirit to get ME…to look at ME. All the faults, all the fears, all the emotional turmoil that made up who I was and how I looked at the world. Being in a space, of thinking I was going along nicely, and I could handle anything that came along was very quickly put to the test and placed right in front of me. I was given the understanding of just what I was actually doing and how that was blocking me in so many ways. And not only that but what I needed to do to remove those walls of fear that I had built over many years of just trying to cope with life. It is a very ‘in your face’ journey and would seriously test my mettle, but in doing so, the outcome is beautiful beyond description. I would then know exactly who I was.
Initially all I wanted was to be able to give from a good place. But I could not do that till I understood ME. And why I was being ME with all those walls. Here I was giving all that lovely advice to people everywhere from what I felt, which was truth, but not doing it within. I needed to ‘know’ it within. It’s like another Truth, I can ask you not to put your hand in the fire, and you will understand it, but you will not know it truthfully till the day you ‘do burn your hand’. Then and only then do you really understand it’s Truth of the pain and agony it truly entails.
So after each fear, that I had studiously tried to avoid for years, was brought to my attention, I took a deep breath, and slowly stepped into my fears, even some that I really didn’t realise were there. It’s amazing how we disguise them or deny their existence. This has released so many things to such a degree that I’m so much more relaxed, handling everything from a totally different place. And I now step into and live my Truth instead of ducking and weaving, afraid of what others will think of me or not wanting to hurt someone when my untruth is actually causing more problems.
Now don’t get me wrong, I’m not clean as a whistle, it’s a learning process, that’s why we are here. As I have said before, if it was easy it would not have the impact on us that is needed. Anything that we must struggle with and endure makes an impression on who and what we are. In doing this we gain understanding and that is added to the wisdom within. If it was easy, we would forget it in a week and probably make the same mistake again down the track.
The interesting part of this journey is, as you become more ‘aware’, you actually step back within yourself and let more and more go. From within yourself you become more your Truth and give from that place. In the beginning you go looking for your Truth until finally you realise it has always been within. But the first part of the journey is required so that when you finally reach this point, you then let it go because you now understand within, and begin the rest of your journey by now giving from that place. You don’t have to go looking for anything anymore, it has always been there, just waiting for you to make that realisation. And like Buddha, you search and search looking for enlightenment, and finally realise it has always been with you. And you then let it all go, and everything changes.
And the incredible thing is, you will not understand this fully until you are ready within. You begin to understand and start to look at YOU, and truly want to be in that space that is always there. You begin to remove those fears and walls that are a part of your journey, and in doing so, find the person that has always been within. And once they are released you are no longer putting those fears out to the universe, no longer saying ‘look at me, this is me full of fears’ and attracting exactly that to you so that you can learn to understand those fears and let them go. You are now coming from a completely different place. Relaxed, calmer, happier…and give from that place, so the universe then gives ‘that’ back to you instead.
Like everything in this world there are extremes. Yin-Yang, up-down, black-white. This is no different. You must know one to truly know the other, appreciate it, understand it and then give from there. And it’s one amazing journey, but, as you begin to understand, you let more and more go. For me it has reached a point that when I do something silly, get angry or one of a million other things….I just let it go. Feel it within for the experience it was but don’t take it on board as an anchor to create some other fear or wall down the track.
Those things no longer have the impact that they once had, because I no longer need to learn these things. I am now ‘aware’ of the Truth of my journey. And to add something even more amazing, everything changes…you begin to look at things differently…and I mean differently…you appreciate everything more…nature, the weather, people, events…and the human urge to judge disappears because you realise they are on their journey, you are now past that…and if anything you begin to help from that place. It truly changes your entire outlook on everything and you begin to understand from a much deeper place. A place that I can only describe as being embraced by unconditional love. You are becoming that unconditional love. This is who you now are, and now give from that place.
So…if you are ready…have a look inside…are you ready for YOU?
Where might I get me one of these highly treasured stones? Sounds like a much better journey than the one I’m currently on.
Hi Tammy, they are usually obtained from any shop that sells crystals. And even some jewellery shops can create some amazing pieces set in rings, pendants etc. A lot can be bought online but you won’t know the crystal until it arrives and it is better to see and feel the crystal first before you buy. It’s like a lady’s shoes or dress, you just have to try before you buy to make sure it looks and feels right. Now I must apologise at this point to not knowing your mobility because of what you are going through but if you are able, research online for any shops or stores that are local enough that you, on better days, you may be able to go and check some stores out. First look up pictures of Moldavite and look at it’s structure and how it is formed and it’s varying shades of green, some people have been known to sell green glass. Then select one that looks and feels right for you. I don’t know your prices over there but they can be a little expensive. Sixty or seventy dollars for one about the size of a man’s thumbnail.(Again that’s over here, we tend to pay much more here than the rest of the world 🙂 ). And again, a little warning, (I really shouldn’t say warning because the end product is what we are all here to do, heal and understand ourselves so that we may reach that lovely place of unconditional love), the stone will seriously allow your heart to open within, but to do that you must first look at yourself, and anything that is within that you would call a fear will be brought forward, allow us to understand it by going through it, which allows us to release it, open up from within and allow that love to flow through us and be ever closer to that condition of unconditional love. It can be a tough climb emotionally (as you are very aware of now), but it will include all emotional blockages, especially from childhood like fears of rejection, low self worth etc, so that we may reach that beautiful place within and be at peace with ourselves, our journey and those around us. But please remember, you are worth it, every single piece of who you are is a creation beyond measure. Give that love to yourself so that you may reach that condition within, release anything that is no longer who you are, and then give from that new place with the wisdom you have found on your journey. The change can be outstanding after a while. Even those close to you will see a ‘rebirth’ and an outlook that can at times feel threatening to them because they can feel YOU have released your fears and are now coming from a place of truth. Your truth. May your journey reach that place. Enjoy the search, that is part of the journey too. Your asking God/the universe to help you on your path will reply in kind because that is what you are putting out there. Your awareness has begun. Namaste 🙂 (Just realised how long this is, could have nearly done a post 🙂 )
Thank you for all the info. I will have to check into this, as I cannot afford 60.00 or 70.00 dollars at the moment. I am on disability and it takes almost all of that to pay for my insurance cause you know, over here in the U.S. nothing is free. But, I hope maybe I can find a cheaper one and then what do I do with it? Hold it during meditation or what? Excuse my ignorance because this is all new to me and I’m so desperate I’m willing to try anything, as long as I can afford it.:)
Nothing to excuse. It cannot be called ignorance if you do not know 🙂 All I did (and this sounds like Aladdin when he rubbed the lamp 🙂 ), was held it in my hand when I meditated (see, you felt that that was the right thing to do anyway), and I put it near when I slept, but again that can be a little too much to begin with as you have asked to understand, and that’s exactly what it will do. Go to my ‘The Dreaming’ on the menu up top and test that out. It may need a bit of adjusting to suit what you feel is right for you. Your intuition is important, you have asked to become aware of your path and journey. In meditation and your dreams, begin to ask within to ‘remember’ what you saw, understood and especially how it felt as this emotional connection is critical. An example is, if you ‘see’ in a dream or meditation, a little boy playing and smiling you would assume this is a lovely picture. But if you also have a strong feeling of danger the whole concept changes and your awareness is raised to that feeling. So it is important to understand what those connections may mean to ‘you’. Not a dream book (don’t get me wrong, some of these are beautiful to read), but some explanations are not what ‘you’ associate them with. Some people like snakes so they don’t associate danger or deceit with them. It has to be what ‘you’ felt and understood with whatever has come through. Much of it can be symbolism, as in an image of an old home and a sadness within. For ‘you’ that may mean a releasing of something that meant a lot to you but it is now time to move forward and let it go. Look for what meaning it may have for you and after a while you will be surprised in the relevance it can have on a regular basis. I now just ask before I sleep or meditate, whatever is for my highest good with love and light, allow it to come through and let me remember it. I can go for weeks and nothing comes through and when the time is right I have a serious chat with spirit (I actually don’t hear voices, it is a lovely series of images or a movie like understanding of something with the feelings that go with it). My chat with spirit for ‘The Death’ wasn’t very long but it held the most incredible sights and feelings that left me in total wonder. Now that may be so that I would not miss anything when I woke as it was a needed part of the understanding to put up on my blog’s menu. Don’t ‘try’ to do anything. Ask and allow that whatever you may need will make itself known from your spirit within. This is a beautiful connection and the more you give from a place of love the more love is being attracted to you. That connection to that place within, and of learning to love you, becomes stronger and stronger until you no longer have those day to day fears that constantly keep you in an anxiety state, reduces the feelings of ‘what if’s’ and allows you to let so much go. I hope this will give you a starting platform to begin your learning of self. It is a very individual journey, but a more loving one because of that. Love & light for your path. Namaste
I read your story again today and as I was reading at a deeper level of myself, I realized your story was my story, including the Moldavite! How in sync is that? I am going through probably my 20th life review and there are still things that need cleansing in order to let go. I was a mess! LOL. I am what they call a “sensitive” , plus I have native blood and ancestry, I am awake, and believe me, being awake and being sensitive is a wild ride my friend. It is wild! I appreciate your sharing this wonderful, wonderful awakening story. Thank you for waking up. It makes my job a little easier! If you are ready to take a mind blowing next step, just let me know. I can hook you up with the right connections! This last few years has been wild! I say that in a good way. I was always the one who could never find a ride wild enough, at the amusement parks. The wild ride of waking up has cured me of that desire! In a good way! Namaste!
Thank’s Michele. Sometimes it takes a little time to digest the ‘new’ bits as we discover them. In my case I was a little stubborn as I realised I was trying to do it my way, and spirit with all the love in the universe, was gently trying to show me my truth. Must be one of those barriers we must go through to learn something 🙂 I’m very glad of your awakening, it is an incredible place when you finally realise it’s significance and what it then means within. The whole journey then takes on a complete new perspective when you realise you have always been there but just needed to peel the layers away to find you. Thank you again for your words and the ‘Moldavite’ connection. May it always be your friend 🙂
Absolutely great post! That says it all! I never met a moldavite I did not like! LOL
I too asked a moldavite to show me what life was about. Part of what the moldavite taught me was denial can kill you! I came close to dying of asthma, simply because I denied I had it, so I was not getting well. Silly, silly, silly! I also learned how to heal the human body though. Moldavites are cool!
Hi Michele, thank you for your lovely comment. I haven’t met a Moldavite I didn’t like either. Currently own seven of them because there was always a nicer one around the corner 🙂 But, did they ever take me on a journey. And now with the understanding they helped me find on my path I can now give from that place. And yes, they do tend to make you look at yourself. Glad your asthma is under control and your enlightenment on full beam 🙂
Great information Mark, the truth is a beautiful thing… It is also very liberating and its not until we have the courage to question who we really are or where we really are that we can see our truth. I remember a warning given to me once by an old mentor, “be careful what you ask for because you just might get it”. Thanks for a great post Mark.
Hi Shane, yes it is a beautiful thing, just not understood until we finally do look inside. And as you say, ‘liberating’ when we understand, realise it’s truth, and begin that part of our journey. And I did ask for what I got, and thankfully ‘got it’ in more ways than one. Thank you for the comment!
Such a journey. Bless you.x
Thank you, it’s available to everyone, just follow your heart! Blessings to you also.x