My apologies to one and all. I did not define something properly in my last post Separation III and probably scared a lot of people. For that, again, my apologies.
Ok, I’ll just repeat a bit here for those that wander in on this post and haven’t read the earlier three posts.
We all know we ever search for that love and happiness in our lives because as time goes by we experience those opposites. And the experience of those opposites give us an understanding of what we do and don’t want in our lives. As an example, in experiencing sadness it will give us a much greater appreciation of what happiness is because of those experiences. So we want to be happy, so we aim for it in all we do. Our INTENT (and remember this word), is to find that happiness. And on through many, many variations of our emotions that this life gives, so that we can find that love and happiness we ever search for. We are ever that unconditional love, it is ever a part of us. The only reason we don’t ‘feel’ it constantly are those fears and doubts we hold. Those fears and doubts are the filters we use to view this world, like a pair of sunglasses they take the shine off everything, and until we understand those fears, only then will we let them go and finally, clearly, see and feel that unconditional love again.
Now, I want you to imagine a vertical line, and as you look at the line I want you to imagine unconditional love at the top, and its opposite of hell at the bottom, with us in the middle. Our experiences will take us up and down that line towards or away from that unconditional love…’so that we can see and understand just what unconditional love is’…or what it is not.
Now our experiences can be absolutely terrible. In our fears we can do some of the most horrid things…and we will go down that line, into a place where we will feel unloved, isolated and alone…because we are moving away from that love, the len’s of our sunglasses of fear are getting darker. But our INTENT is we want to still find that love and happiness, so we still go looking for it, even if our fears are still holding us tight.
But as our lifetime goes by, all those experiences are giving us those three big, beautiful understandings. In experiencing all those emotions we are ever gaining in that empathy, compassion and love…and those three ever keep us up that line. It is our natural goodness within us all. And with it is always that INTENT in all we do. None of us may ever go near what hell is, we will only ever go up or down that line in what we need to experience and understand what unconditional love is. All of our emotions are at varying degree’s in what we need to experience and understand. Mind you, I’ve thrown many a tantrum in my reactions and think I’m the worst in the world…but my INTENT is to try and understand why because I don’t want that feeling, it is unloving, hurtful and just plain wrong. So I will try to talk it out, find a solution, and in doing so build that trust, the core that love is, and heal me, us, and all around with it. It may take time, years even, but my and your INTENT is to find that love and happiness and not stay in that uncomfortable place. Is there a ledger for all these horrible things, or for that matter, all the good that we do…I don’t know. I’m just showing our ability to be that love that is inside us and keep moving up that line by that INTENT inside us.
But hell is that INTENT where we will want to cause and do the most damage that we possibly can…deliberately…and not care at all or just be so angry and negative and lock ourselves within it. It will, by its INTENT bring us down that line closer and closer to that bottom that hell is. Now again I must explain what I felt in that last post. And I know that you will not truly understand of what I speak, simply because I know if any other had touched this it would be everywhere. It is the most horrendous thing in the world to touch that void, that place of no love. There is no pain like it, emotionally, physically or spiritually. It isn’t anything like our normal un-love in a bad breakup or the loss of someone close (even though it feels so terrible because we haven’t got anything to compare it to). And the reason I know this is…I have now felt both, those opposites of unconditional love and hell…and we ever sit on that line somewhere and have that love still all around us, always. This loss of love is that extreme end at the bottom, and if I do not tell you anything else…DO NOT GO THERE…you have no idea. And you won’t, simply because we all want that love, ever face towards it and will take another step in that direction. It is ever in your hands, your INTENT, to find that love and happiness.
Just remember, as bad as anything may be, there is always that love. I have only felt one thing from Spirit that makes God not happy, not that this is the only thing but all I had been ‘nudged’ with…and that is murder. It’s like in murdering someone you have removed their ability to find His love so it doesn’t make Him happy at all. Is that the line in the sand, I don’t know. How do we then view war, does that too come under INTENT. Or Hitler and his atrocities, and even in those we are given the chance to go back up that line…again our INTENT. Something that Spirit showed me was these big events like Hitler actually do give huge experiences in at the least witnessing them so that people can see world wide those opposites that this world is so full of, so that we can try to understand. 99% of people cringe at firing a gun let alone kill someone…all because of their INTENT, that natural goodness within us all.
Just be that love that is inside you, naturally. Yes we do get angry, point the finger at the world, stumble and fall…often…but we do get back up, we do want to find that love and happiness. We try so hard in it all, that is that love within you calling out your name. And trust me, at this lifetimes end is something so beautiful you will be glad at each and every step you have taken to find it. So just be you, and that void of no love will never need to darken your doorstep ever. Do we ever have to touch hell, I do not think so because our INTENT is not in that direction, simply because we touch that lack of love along that line to understand what we need in our journey. But if we ever have to I think it will only be briefly like me so we can truly appreciate that unconditional love when we touch it too…permanently.
Why did I touch it? Well, I did let rip at God a long time ago and in my anger asked Him to show me purpose in this crazy world (I was in the middle of a divorce and its emotional roller coaster. Beware what you ask for, words have great power). So I have had the privilege to go those extremes, and in understanding it, it is a very great privilege indeed…but…in seeing them I have truly seen the depth of that love and know its truth of it ever being around us. Yes, it scared me, hence the warning. You cannot touch something like that and be silent. But you will know within yourself that you are good, even if some days you do feel so rejected by that love, in whatever form it takes. But that is just the teaching of what you don’t want, ever asking you to look deeper, find the why of that lack of meaning within you and take another step. You aren’t being condemned by its lack, but being asked to love yourself by taking one more step. And yes it can be hard, frustrating and drive you nuts…but if it didn’t you would not appreciate what you have done, appreciate what it has all given you…nor the beauty at its end.
Trust me, on the day you finally understand you will indeed be so, so appreciative in every step you have taken, it is beyond words the beauty in its understanding ❤️🙏🏽