It is those people that hurt us that guide us truly. They show us ‘us’ in all our painful bits. And that pain, it is a pointer to what we hold within. Those doubts and fears from our childhood and upbringing. From those we love and look up to. Yes, those beautiful people we call our parents.
But we can’t even blame them for it either, they are simply passing on, unintentionally, the pain that they haven’t resolved in themselves. Giving us our doubts and fears to carry forward. And it is those very people that hurt us that are showing us ‘our heart’ and what it holds. And it takes a lifetime to understand them, and they are meant to so that when we finally understand them we will in fact appreciate the journey. Because then, in understanding those pains, doubts and fears, that we will suddenly realize they are in fact the making of us.
There are many we are hurt by…but…those same things don’t hurt other people. We are the only common denominator, it is only us that are constantly, seemingly being hurt by those things that others don’t react to. Not all, but a sign that it is inside us, not everyone. We have to find that part of us to see how this can happen to us only, repair something that leaves us in a mess so that life can only be seen through fears glasses. And it is an amazing thing that when we experience something happy it glows within for a good while…but hurt, hurt is something that ever prods us and wanting a response. Coming up often to feel it lament that pain ever held within.
And it is, and especially the painful bits, that ask us to look within…and ask why. To keep treading that path of doubt and dare to look into our hearts when we realize we keep getting this pain from the same things. And it is in there that our answer lays. Dare it and follow it back to that childhood, understand that it is the mind of a child that can’t understand why they are being treated by those they love and look up so badly.
But that 4 or 5 or 6 year old child cannot understand that those yelling and screaming at you, or treating you poorly in many other ways…is them becoming angry and hurt…just like you now feel from those others around you that cause you such pain. Even just understanding that can heal much. And it all has a very beautiful and loving purpose, so that you can finally see and understand that in it all is just that child hurting from misunderstanding what is truly happening. To feel that it wasn’t them at all, but just the pain they went through in misunderstanding their own pain. It wasn’t an attack on you…but a love denied in thinking it was. For you and your parents there are a lifetime of doubt to resolve, to reach beyond the pain so that you can see and understand.
It is truly meant to take us on a journey inside us, to feel, react and slowly understand the wisdom of them all. To see that we need to know them all so that we can see…that from the very beginning a very profound love wants us to be where ‘it’ is. But like anything in this world they all require experience to understand. You can’t understand how to be a teacher unless you begin to train and experience hours (that turn into years to truly become good at it), and truly appreciate what being a teacher really means. And that is in understanding what to do…and what not to do in all of its art. And even reaching a point to where you might even throw it all in, in frustration. But all it takes is to see that understanding light come on in a child’s eyes to get that glow going again within, see something in that beautiful purpose and take another step, and another.
And love, that is a lifetime experience, so many incredible things to touch, feel, trip and stumble. Those many emotions of anger, happiness, hurt, elation, sadness and joy. They all guide us to that master craft of unconditional love. And after so much time it will be appreciated like nothing else, because one day we will think we can’t go on, can no longer tread this path because of its pain…but it is there that we will reach that understanding, touch something that was just beyond reach for so, so long…and now stands in a light. And in that one moment something will let us see…see that it all has given us something so profound, so beautiful, so loving that we will be glad of every moment we traveled. Understand that it isn’t us pointing at a cruel world for all we experienced…but a very loving teacher guiding us to something beyond words, leading us up hill and down dale, physically, emotionally and spiritually…so that over time we can see a purpose, a truth…and a pathway home.
Yes, it is a hard journey…but…if one day you took a journey, a very hard journey but found the love of your life on that very journey…would you be glad of that journey, regardless of its pain, to find what you’ve ever wanted. Or deny that journey and all it means?
May you all stumble…often. May you all be happy…often. But most of all…may you know that beauty through it all, slowly, gently setting you free…often ❤️🙏🏽
P.S. Thank you Danielle, I read your post…and off Spirit went 🤣 Thank you for sharing that love that is you, your ‘purpose’ is moving forward in many ways indeed 😀❤️🙏🏽