Decided to dance a little deeper in life, and wow can spirit dance!

Sunrise

Another Life!

I have just read Eddie’s post, of which I hope he doesn’t mind me repeating here…

“Those who are not attached to life will not fear death. They are more fortunate than those who give life too much meaning. Tao Teh Ching”.

I thought I too was not attached to life and had no fear of death…until on the floor gasping for breath I felt what it was to lose it…and there sprang to life, literally, what it was to actually have that life.

An appreciation was born at that very moment to what it was that I had all around me, a love so profound that it met every need that this conditional world has, so that I could understand its very nature…and in that one act…accept it, and let me go. Yes me.

For I, I of the ego cling to so much so that I can see, not realising that this very act keeps me blind. But that blindness has a purpose, it will truly allow me to appreciate that light when it comes, and understand it in a way no other way can. It is only when we lose something we love that its meaning becomes apparent. Losing ‘life’ is a very profound love not fully understood…until taken.

Appreciate this life, it is a gift indeed ❀️ πŸ™πŸ½ πŸ¦‹

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  1. Nice blog…
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  2. Appreciate this life, it is a gift indeed

    Sooo resonate with you! Every day is a gift to unfold ❀️ I love your beautiful and inspiring message πŸ™‚

    • Mark Lanesbury

      Thank you Himali, and each day is most certainly a gift. I know we can get ho hum about a lot of things but at that moment on the floor there was a resonance unlike anything I have held before, an appreciation of all those things given us so we can indeed find that love and happiness we always search for, in the good as well as the bad. Its like our parents pushing us to go to school and learn, it can be ho hum, but much later it directs us in our journey much, much easier. May your journey know that love in it all dear lady ❀️ πŸ™πŸ½ πŸ¦‹

  3. Wow! Wake of dawn reality! Nice one

    • Mark Lanesbury

      It most certainly did waken me to a dawn like no other…and the beauty was so beautiful. Thank you for sharing that dawn πŸ˜€ ❀️ πŸ™πŸ½ πŸ¦‹

  4. I find myself wondering if I am appreciating the life I have been gifted enough many of my days. And I wonder if at the times there has been the risk of it being ripped away that I fall deeper into that appreciation – even if some of that time was during the moments of my life I struggled deeply with depression.

    A reminder of this kind will always be timely, so thank you. Appreciate life, the people we are experiencing this life with, and the love that we have and can share.

    Peace to you. ✨

    • Mark Lanesbury

      Thank you Hamish, and as much pain as this world has, underneath is something so profound in its actions to be beyond words. We cannot fully understand anything until we actually experience it. I can explain the beauty and magnificence of being in love to everybody, but until they actually experience that very thing we would never truly understand it until the day we do fall in love. And that is our journey.
      We are taught (intentionally and unintentionally), from birth those good bits and bad of our parents, those we love and look up to and want to emulate because of that, but and are left with a separation of that love, a feeling of rejection in whatever form it takes…feeling not good enough of this or that, or the world is against us in so many ways leaving us with a fear in whatever form it takes.
      But that very thing has great purpose, it is in trying to break through that inner pain that we experience great heartache and angst and in feeling that side of life we will so greatly appreciate that love when it comes. After enduring such fear for so long in our lives a simple smile or a hug speaks volumes of what is truly there on the ‘other side’.
      Experience and feel hate, anger and fear and only then can we truly understand and appreciate their opposites in that happiness and love we find among our journey…until we do the one thing we have searched for ‘out there’ for so long…love ourselves by understanding why we feel this inner pain when we are treated in a certain way, react to events like we have been speared with the blackness of hell.
      The day we see and realise it is the very thing we were taught by our parents actions, they had not understood their inner fears yet so unintentionally pass them on to us as they raised us. Find why you react, why even you are in ways just like them. See and understand and in that understanding it will set you free to love the one person you have feared to because of what you held against yourself in life. Take that wall of fear and face it and underneath is a love and light like no other, understand it and it will set you free, it will lose its power over you and finally allow a freedom that only self love can give.
      Love and light to you also kind sir, see and believe in you…yes it is hard, but through this journey is also its opposite, that beauty that only love can give ❀️ πŸ™πŸ½ πŸ¦‹

      • Thank you for such a caring response. The process reminds me of writing in a way. Under all the dense words and phrases found within a first draft, we can find the beautiful gem of a story underneath – but we must work to find it.

        My sister has always said, every decision we make leads to an outcome. Some not what we desired, but an outcome all the same. And from that we have more knowledge about why or why not something worked than we did before. Often when I am turning negative thoughts and feelings outwards, it is because I am subconsciously annoyed at something I have done in the past. *That* is the thing I need to work on, not expressing anger, hate, or frustration at others.

        I hope the rest of the coming weekend provides many ponderous moments, and opportunities for imparting more wisdom such as this. 🧑😊

        • Mark Lanesbury

          Well said Hamish. And we will indeed learn each step we take, good or bad, that is this life’s magic.
          Have a great weekend too dear sir, may it at least bring a smile or that inner knowing that love is…in that we can’t go wrong πŸ˜€ ❀️ πŸ™πŸ½ πŸ¦‹

      • So true. It’s exactly where I’m at in my journey. ❀️

        • Mark Lanesbury

          It is an amazing thing as we discover that awareness waiting within Laura. Realising that every step does indeed have a purpose, the good and the bad. I can now look back and see that there isn’t a thing that has occurred to me that hasn’t given me much understanding which in turn opens that inner wall we have always carried to block our fears. And in that process open our hearts in its understanding and love the one person we have never dared to…us. Thank you for sharing Laura, it is a ray of sunshine to realise so many are with us along the way πŸ˜€ ❀️ πŸ™πŸ½ πŸ¦‹

  5. Just as your kindness and wisdom has been a gift to all of us, Mark . . .

    • Mark Lanesbury

      Thank you kind lady, as are yours. You always have that ‘knack’ of expressing something that touches all parts of us, be it wit, laughter, heartfelt sorrow or adventure that only you can give. I wish I could write as well to interest the many and leave with a full feeling of having been somewhere truly. A gift it is, don’t ever leave us or our lives will be so much heavier without your magic Kristine. Now if I could just leave a comment or two at your site occasionally my life will indeed be lighter again. Thankfully I am still getting your posts, as I see one tucked in my inbox. Looking forward to it πŸ˜€ ❀️ πŸ™πŸ½ πŸ¦‹ πŸ˜‚ 🀣

      • Oh, Mark. Such kind words and I really needed to hear them. Thank you for being my angel today :-).

        • Mark Lanesbury

          My pleasure dear lady. And I made a reply to your last post of ‘Island Life!’ and alas, as usual it refused to stick. I even repeated the process and it said I had already said that and wouldn’t accept it, so obviously it can ‘see’ my comment somewhere. I even did the logout thing and that didn’t work so I went to the Worpress reader and it stuck in there so I went yehaa, I’m in. But when I refreshed the page it had melted through the cracks πŸ™‚
          So, since we’re chatting here I shall put my reply to your post here, for this instance anyway πŸ™‚
          Island Life! … I went back to a past place ‘we’ had visited…and all it held were those last miserable feelings and memories, gone was the happiness of what they were for us. Thankfully new pastures have evolved, as I have.
          Yes, I miss those parts where a smile and laughter could be found, but in its place is another discovery. Peace, acceptance and a love that I thought was from being with another, but had been quietly waiting inside for me to look (always the last place we find those lost things πŸ™‚ ).
          I’ve had a few more relationships, discovered more bits of me and left some more behind. But the most amazing thing I have found amongst this mayhem is…I don’t have to be anywhere or with anyone to find that happiness anymore. In finding myself it has shown me where happiness truly lives. When you can smile deeply inside for no reason at all…your home. And home is indeed where the heart is…but…no harm in sharing it with someone else too.
          Tall, dark and handsome will come when you let him go, least expect it, and time to share on another level. Find you in something you love to do, it gives the heart and mind some rest and refreshes who we are…don’t want to present ourselves all fizzled and worn with a stressed heart do we? πŸ˜€ ❀️ πŸ™πŸ½ πŸ¦‹

  6. Profound words dearest Mark…. Indeed until we face that moment… no one unless they have walked in those shoes can say how that moment will feel..

    Like you Mark… I fear not death… I have sat and held the hand of loved ones and I have felt it a real privilege to act as their companion in that moment of transition… I have talked over my Dad… been there for my Grandma at her moment of passing and also a neighbours passing…
    Each was different… Each was Peaceful, and Each of their passing’s held a different emotion within me..

    I feel this is my last incarnation here on Earth, I’ve also had that confirmed several times to me via other sources…
    I will be sad to leave, this most wonderful playground of beauty which somehow our ego has managed to corrupt .. But then has it….. For has not that shadow also taught us how to seek out more light.. In this dualistic reality of our experience..

    I feel Earth is unique in her beauty… But then there is also the explorer within me.. That I know will want to test boundaries, and new things… This creativeness within me here in my Earth form I embrace.. So I look to my next adventure with Joy… Where ever and what ever form that takes…

    For Now….. I appreciate Beauty…. I appreciate such friends as yourself Mark, who teach us with your inspiring dialogue how to appreciate and live in gratitude of each day and every breath we take…

    Thank you for sharing Mark…. May we all be grateful for another Day, Another Life and understand we are all the fortunate ones.. For we are here to experience LIFE in all its Glory…

    Much love and gratitude Mark… ❀️ ❀️

    • Mark Lanesbury

      And thank you for sharing also dear lady, your journey has touched us all as you share what you have become. And it does have a very dualistic nature so that we can understand them both…and choose our path within them.

      I have never been at anyone’s passing, and I think because of the way I ‘feel’ energy it would have affected how I experienced my recent event where I almost died. But it most certainly gave me a huge appreciation of this life we have, as you also do and share accordingly.

      And speaking of which, your heart is ‘tired’, as in…you have trod a path for so long, reached so many things within you, but a direction eludes you…not realising that it is that ‘let go’ you have waited for. A point in our ‘awareness’ leaves us feeling tired, run down, depressed even as we go through our changes. But in this conditional world our own expectations will still hold us fast, simply because we need them to survive but the lines get blurred when good old ego keeps shuffling in the background…and our direction with it.

      You have had great strength my friend, for you and others, and beaten a path to find a love that called you. At the least a rest is called for, even if it is ‘up there’. When we go through such a powerful change as this life does, it is like anything we go through emotionally, like a divorce or loss of a loved one. Not like a sprained wrist or broken leg, 6 weeks and your right to go. But our hearts, as strong as they are, will take much time to change into something new, created from the very experiences we go through. Six or 12 months won’t cut it, it takes several years to become that change, and among that is a regular check in by life to see how we are feeling. If it touches that painful spot you know more time is needed, else an elation that you are feeling better when touched.

      If this is your last incarnation Sue then appreciate that ‘life’ this Earth shares with you. Adventure onward be it art, craft or the footwork of appreciating a path well taken. You have shared your heart so beautifully to all around by those very things but with not a thought to yourself, unconditionally sharing what you have found. Now its your turn to give a little to you, still sharing but from a heart on a new path…your path.

      I, personally, am so very glad we have crossed paths on this beautiful world, and as I think many others will have also. You have brought a light in your awakening that helped us find our own, shared many an adventure in your posts that asked us to question ourselves and ‘check in’ as life pokes and prods our hearts. For that I thank you dearly my friend, many a time you have put out a hand in your words to calm a heart in need, enriching a soul and set us free a little further.

      Love and light to you also Sue, enjoy your ‘light keeper’s heart’ be it in your garden, expressing it in your arts or crafts, or a post to the world. It will be appreciated by what it is made from, a heart that has opened well ❀️ πŸ™πŸ½ πŸ¦‹

      • Mark, I will be back tomorrow dear friend to answer your most profound comment in more detail… Its late here and my eyes are filled with tears as I read your words…. Thank you is not enough… I have copied your words to read away from WP again and I will answer tomorrow my friend.. Thank you πŸ™πŸ’– Thank you

  7. Mark, your heartlight and shining beautiful energy shines through here. I’m sending as always, prayers and healing hugs…xo

    • Mark Lanesbury

      (Not sure what happened but my answer to this comment went to your comment on my other post 🀣). Thank you Yvonne, this journey has begun to open my closed heart so that it can shine what has always been there. And as difficult as it is to uncover, it is worth every single step. You are feeling it all and relating to it from those very steps you take too. Sensing your heart taking those very steps, in your own way, to find that love and happiness we all search for. And slowly realising it isn’t out there but inside us all, gently waiting to be lovingly found. Thank you for your beautiful words dear lady, they are very appreciated. They touch a soul and give heartfelt meaning to my journey. xo ❀️ πŸ™πŸ½ πŸ¦‹

      • Thank you for rewriting the comment. I appreciate the efforts and I’m sorry it got mixed up. I hope that we find the love and happiness we are all searching for with divine timing and under grace. Sending you healing hugs and heartfelt peace. xo

        • Mark Lanesbury

          And received with the love it was given kind lady, thank you. And we will indeed find that love and happiness, it is just waiting for us to see truly into our hearts. xo ❀️ πŸ™πŸ½ πŸ¦‹

  8. Beautiful post Mark. I so agree that life is so precious and so short. It’s important that we teach our children and grandchildren to hold dear the life they have been given and to treasure it always. My grandson turned 18 yesterday and this is his last year of high school and has been a challenging year and now he’s an adult. It’s hard leaving childhood behind and going into the real world. He gave himself a present yesterday and spent the day all to himself surfing and becoming one with the ocean. No competitive swim meets, no having others judge him. Just his board and the ocean. We should all give ourselves the gift of acceptance and love. xo

    • Mark Lanesbury

      Very wise words Michele, we should all be sat out in nature ‘sans phones etc’, and be made to stop, really stop and appreciate what is all around us. Something so profound but cannot be felt or seen. I know we all have to discover ourselves and we are indeed given much to address, but in saying that we are never taught that art of awareness, even on a basic level at school or something to deal with these many things that confront us at every turn. One day a month should be a natures solitude, even if to just de-stress with a meditation ‘out there’. And yes, it is giving us that gift of acceptance and love by doing it. Thank you for sharing kind lady, may your day appreciate that awareness xo πŸ˜€ ❀️ πŸ™πŸ½ πŸ¦‹

  9. All around us lie these gifts of life,
    with their soft but mighty glow,
    truly gifts indeed Mark!
    Wonderful

    • Mark Lanesbury

      Thank you Eddie, and indeed they are. I truly did not know until my journey took me there to see and appreciate something so profound.
      And I must apologise to you kind sir, I always ask first before I re-blog or copy anything but for some reason Spirit was ‘urgent’ as it came through so I went with the flow. Someone may have needed to see or hear something within it…they were wise words and the world needs those at the moment. Regardless, thank you for sharing in your many ways…and for still being here after your ‘editing’ hiccup or I wouldn’t have been able to share it πŸ˜€ ❀️ πŸ™πŸ½ πŸ¦‹

  10. I had a fear of death from a young age, since I heard throughout my life my fathers fear of the other side. Interesting how it was ingrained in my mind. Thank you for sharing. This veil of forgetfulness is what makes this trip to earth so exciting. πŸ˜†

    • Mark Lanesbury

      It does indeed keep us blind so that we can do ‘first time’ everything and enjoy, or be scared, in all that we do. That is the only way to touch our own truth, to ‘feel’ that conditional peel away to show us…us. And ingrained is that childhood thing where we love and look up to our parents and want to be just like them…and take on them all, good bits and bad, so that we can search for that truth. Thank you for sharing kind lady, may your truth show its light among your adventures ❀️ πŸ™πŸ½ πŸ¦‹

  11. AW, Mark, how touching this post is! Your insights are getting deeper and deeper and your Truth is shining right through. Oh yes ego is quite the prison guard and when we realize we have no-thing to fear but fear itself, we then have the freedom to live life fully. Of course, God gave us common sense and intelligence so with that in mind, we all should know via our hearts or Inner Guidance, what will bring harm upon us. I am so excited for YOU that you are on this journey and to witness you blooming is amazing!! Know you are loved and so respected. God bless you! xo

    • Mark Lanesbury

      Yes dear lady, that fear and its offsider ego do hold us in their prison for a very long time. But that very sentence is built on a very beautiful love. After enduring such pain for so long, as you most certainly do know, the breakthrough is with a very high appreciation of what we have become because of it. Mind you, and as in my case, it scared me to death…literally. But beyond it was such an awakening, to be touched by God cannot do anything but be a very profound moment that will affect me for the rest of my life. And it most certainly isn’t just me, He touches us all in ways that would bring tears in their beauty if understood, as your photographs do dear lady. You can see with His eyes what is there…such a gift from Him. God bless you too Amy, flow with His love xo ❀️ πŸ™πŸ½ πŸ¦‹

      • I am flowing in His love, Mark. What I experience and feel at times is bliss, pure and simple. It also has created a way for me to overcome my “fear of authority” and in doing so, I am free to speak my mind in such a way that the other person knows I am who I am and no one will change that! When I tune into the world, which I don’t do often, the Compassion I feel leaves me drained and often times weeping. Yet I have to remind myself, God uses ALL to bring ALL to Him. May your day be grand today. Sending you my love and may your know His peace this day!! xo

        • Mark Lanesbury

          Thank you Amy, your blessing received and returned in kind. Go with His compassion my friend ❀️ πŸ™πŸ½ πŸ¦‹

  12. Thank you for sharing this profound and beautiful post Mark. Your life energy and love shines through πŸ’›πŸ™πŸ’›

    • Mark Lanesbury

      Thank you Val, its energy would not be bound. So many things have shifted from where I thought I was, new light is indeed a great mover and shaker. It has taken this long to just absorb the change let alone understand it fully. But I suppose it is like those many things that affect us, it wants us to see and sometimes we need a little nudge. Mind you, that one was an earthquake. Thank you for sharing dear lady, may your understandings be built on that love too πŸ˜€ ❀️ πŸ™πŸ½ πŸ¦‹

      • The universe works in mysterious ways! Sometimes we wake up with a life threatening lightening bolt and others, after years of practice. πŸ’•

        • Mark Lanesbury

          Thankfully wisdom will always find its destination kind lady…eventually anyway! πŸ˜€ ❀️ πŸ™πŸ½ πŸ¦‹ πŸ˜‚ 🀣

  13. Insights… light bulb moments exploding within as I feel myself stepping back, releasing all the attachments! So many we have and so much time to realise them all. Always love finding your post in my mail Mark and resonating with the love that seems to be exploding so grandly these days all over the world! So happy you are enjoying all these moments too❀️ much love, Barbara πŸ₯°

    • Mark Lanesbury

      Dear lady, light bulbs going off all around, its magic will ever set us free as we dare to live. I have been a little quiet as that last journey took away so much of what I thought was a great foundation in my life. But so many unknowns to touch and feel so that I can be set free. But in the meantime my blindfold has been loosened and more light is coming in so that I can see a little clearer and appreciate the very fact that life is indeed my friend, even while taking it away. Glad to hear your voice Barbara, my site here has been wobbling and I don’t know how many have had such difficulty in even liking, let alone to leave a comment. I think a moment is coming where I will chill awhile and ponder upon a hill with a view forever. Maybe a bird will land next to me and give me a message…ah, to understand that, wouldn’t that be wonderful πŸ˜€ ❀️ πŸ™πŸ½ πŸ¦‹ πŸ˜‚ 🀣

  14. What a great intro quote. That is all that is about attachment. As long as we are attached to anything, even to life, we are not free to live. It sounds so paradox yet it is so clear. I think it is only understood when experienced, like you do. And that is the great insight we only receive through death itself. And as you said, we need that attachment in order to really understand what it means to be free!

    • Mark Lanesbury

      Well said Erika, I read Eddie’s post and it sprang to life all its own. It does seem such a paradox but within it is another secret that I think the purity of unconditional love is built on. So simple like all else in this world but a lifetime to grasp…and let go in its understanding like all else. I thought I had control, you know, have a direction in life, hopes and dreams so you wake up and take a step in that direction etc…and you really think your just going with the flow, but on the floor it stripped away so much of what I thought was my ‘direction’. I wasn’t living, I had too many puppet strings that I had attached to myself. Don’t get me wrong, they have purpose. But when you think your puppet strings are gone and you see that there are many more there, it is a bit of a shock. The most important part for me was to see what ‘life’ really meant, by having it removed it was such a profound moment to realise just how ‘everything’ we have is built on that energy of love. It has left me in wonder at just a breath, a butterflies wing beat…and a smile…the power within that one thing that we take so much for granted, can indeed move mountains. It’s power bounces from one to another, not only in another smile but how they think and approach their day differently. That one becomes two, then 4, then 8…and before you know it we have hit incredible numbers, this town, the next, interstate. All because maybe a little old lady smiled at you. Imagine the feeling if you actually helped her cross the street, that inner glow from indeed sharing your heart fully.
      Thank you for sharing your love kind lady, may it ever set you free too πŸ˜€ ❀️ πŸ™πŸ½ πŸ¦‹

      • Yes, exactly, that is what I am thinking, we can spread a love virus so easily, if people joined in. That’s why smiling is so important. We need to encourage and show others their values continuously. And that is when we discover our own worth only deeper.

        • Mark Lanesbury

          Beautifully said dear lady, it does indeed show us our hearts by what we actually do. Projecting is but what we are πŸ˜€ ❀️ πŸ™πŸ½ πŸ¦‹

  15. Thank you for sharing yours and being here!

    • Mark Lanesbury

      Thank you kind lady for sharing yours too. It shows that inner love to give even when it pains so much to do so. Our journey can be so testing but underneath it all is a freedom words cannot describe. And as hard as it is, it will give in return something so beautiful to be beyond words. Be strong my friend, hold that hope that love is, and it will set you free ❀️ πŸ™πŸ½ πŸ¦‹

  16. And it is a gift best shared.

    • Mark Lanesbury

      Most certainly dear lady, love is best served shared, like the air we breath. I actually got a lovely hug from a friend yesterday, she dropped by to give me something but was more interested in my health, my well being. So to start our encounter she hugged me to say hello without a word, and on leaving she did the same. It spoke mountains of words, love and sharing like nothing else. AND…that lovely energy reduced so much pain I felt alive again after so much time.
      A simple thing, but a power beyond words. And I was ever grateful to receive such a blessing. Find a hug dear lady, even if its just the postman. He/she will be surprised and probably pass it on. Mind you, the deliveries will be late that day πŸ˜€ ❀️ πŸ™πŸ½ πŸ¦‹ πŸ˜‚ 🀣

  17. Ananda

    Profoundly beautiful

    • Mark Lanesbury

      Thank you kind sir, it was indeed a very beautiful moment…even if it brought every terror known to man to the surface of my mind, it also showed its opposite like all else does in our lives so that we may understand our journey and the love it is built on πŸ˜€ ❀️ πŸ™πŸ½ πŸ¦‹

  18. So so true. πŸ¦‹

    • Mark Lanesbury

      It is a moment to truly ponder, to understand our journey beneath, above and all around…even as we pay the bills it is holding our hearts so that we can see πŸ˜€ ❀️ πŸ™πŸ½ πŸ¦‹

  19. Yes, indeed!!!

    • Mark Lanesbury

      Thank you kind sir, may your journey sing to your heart also. A sound in tune with each step you take πŸ˜€ ❀️ πŸ™πŸ½ πŸ¦‹

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