What Is Truth!
When you ‘know’ in your heart that you are telling your truth…not what another expects, not what you expect, not that slight twist so you don’t hurt another, nor because of the masks we wear, nor because of our fears (and that is the most difficult)…you will ‘know’ you are standing in your truth.
You will ‘know’ in your heart that you have finally gone past all the conditions that we have placed on ourselves in this world, the untruths, the lies, the bends and twists ‘so you don’t hurt someone’, and even because you feel you are made to in your work, family or friends. And this is easy to see…how do you treat those in your family, your friends, your work mates. Honestly…you never treat them all the same. Why? Simply because you are on-guard in many different ways. Our masks.
And the hardest part is…you’ve never been there before because ‘life’ holds you in those fears and masks. It isn’t until you dare to go past your fears and in doing so ‘finally be honest with yourself’, will you realize what truth really is. And in doing so you will drop a weight beyond words of all that you held inside of all that untruth, and finally be free, and stand in the truth that unconditional love is. Conditional love is an untruth, and we are loaded with it. But that very ‘load’ is asking you to see this…and break free.
And unconditional love is just that…you removing all those bits and finally being totally honest with yourself…and trust who you really are…only then will you know that beauty and truth that unconditional love is. We cannot truly trust another until we trust ourselves. We think we do…but…ever the question of ‘what if I’ or ‘can I do this or that’, ever ‘on-guard’ to the moment. That is fears doubts…in all we do. And while ever we are there…that is what we give. On-guard is fears brother.
Don’t get me wrong, we can be open and honest with ourselves and others in many ways. But to be ‘there’, and totally truthful with ourselves…that is this very journey, to find that unconditional love, the truth of the universe, and the meaning of life. Unconditional love is just that, that moment when we realize us, see us beyond what held us and touch that moment of love. And truly…there are no words to describe it, it has to be touched because it is so far beyond the words of this world. Words are very powerful, but always in how they are used. Stand in your truth and they become love’s own signal. In fact, you can even feel someone who is ‘there’ without a word being spoken 🤗❤️🙏
I resonate. Yes! The truth is being always uncovered to ourselves for those of us on a path of facing fears. It’s the courage required to recognize the love that’s always been there! 💗
Your blog has been listed on my favorite blogs list on my reader (desktop) but somehow when I switch to reader on phone (should be same reader) as I do a search with your blog, it’s hard to find and then when I click on your comments to track back to your blog back that way, it doesn’t let me sign in.
I’m just explaining the maze online!
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Thank you again for sending me a message through the “contact” and I do hope that whatever is amiss gets corrected in all the many and various ways the blogging and commenting/responding process goes amiss!
Hugs 🤗 🪽 and Wings!
Ka
This WordPress has its moments Ka, even if they last for months/years. Maybe this is our truth being tested 😂 Our truth is ever being found kind lady, this conditional world asks it of us, to see our fears and go beyond them. It is an incredible journey when you see the light within it, the love ever there but needing to be cleared and opened by a heart weighed down ❤️
Many hugs returned my friend, may that light, in Worpress or you, be found to open your way 🤗❤️🙏
Thank you! 🙏🏻💗✨🙌🏻😍
“But to be ‘there’, and totally truthful with ourselves…that is this very journey, to find that unconditional love, the truth of the universe, and the meaning of life.” To be truthful with ourselves and stand in our truth is the most powerful and life-changing journey. We will inevitably lose some relationships once we embark on that path. Truth = higher consciousness and higher consciousness is a state of being some humans are strongly inclined to push away and avoid, solely because of the higher truths that are revealed. Much love and many thanks to you, dear Mark, for this powerful post! Your new posts don’t come up in my Reader, so I have to put your blog name in the WP search engine and seek them out. ❤️🙏❤️
My blog has been doing strange things kind lady. The only thing that seems to work is to unfollow me and then refollow again, it’s like it reloads a timer for a few months again 🤗
And definitely yes for those changes we all go through as we find that love within us. There are so many experiences to fine tune what we really want in our hearts, many hurdles to go over and plenty of lovely flowers to see in this journey MM. And thankfully a few years to enhance that ability to unconditionally (not in the beginning, we are too busy ‘following’ the crowd. But it too has a purpose), choose to do it all and understand that incredible love inside. Thank you for the share kind lady, may we all dare to stand within it 🤗❤️🙏
Great post, Mark. Only when we are truthful with ourselves can we live and accept all life has to offer us unconditionally.
Indeed Michele, well said. This feels like a long hard journey but it slowly is teaching us that truthfulness, to find that love within ourselves. Thank you for sharing yours kind lady 🤗❤️🙏
Unconditional love…yes..beautiful post Mark! 💖
Thank you Yvonne, Spirit showed me this journey…but first I had to trip and stumble like everyone else so I could understand its meaning. We think we have much truth, until we go past our fear and truly see what we are holding inside. Thank you for the share kind lady. And yes, your comment should say ‘Submitting Comment’ then won’t come up until I reply 🤗❤️🙏
Maybe truth is not a curse, but a present waiting to be opened.
I think there’s a lot to be said about how we perceive the truth. To me, I think it is easy to put blinders on and see things in one way. Yet when it’s easy, there tends to be nothing more to think about. When the inner spirit and wisdom try to wake you, there’s usually something more.
Thank you for this and for your awakening 🙂
Indeed it is Linda, once touched from daring to seek our truth…everything begins to change. And don’t get me wrong, we need to feel this untruth, it shows us what not to be. But we won’t know that unless we experience it first. And even in the beginning we think we know our truth, and in a general sense we do. The hard part is seeing that it is our fear that twists it in our lens of life. Portraying us from behind those masks we wear. What many cannot see is…while ever we are blinded by fear, we cannot see or feel that truth of unconditional love. Heal by understanding our fear, and we will open to it.
It is an amazing thing, after so many years of wearing those masks, that we reach a point where we say…I don’t want to do this any more, and dare to go deeper. And in that place a light appears, just a glimmer of hope to show us that there is something beyond it all. And once touched it wants us to keep going. And on the day you ‘see’ that it isn’t some hopeless story but a very profound moment in your life…you will see what ‘truth’ really means. You will see that each and every step needed to happen, to guide, to cajole, to scare and to cheer us to this destiny…and realize it is that truth of love and happiness we have ever searched for.
And thank you for sharing also Linda. May your gift be as beautiful kind lady, to touch your soul and open you to that unconditional love awaiting us all 🤗🥰❤️🙏
Such an insightful post. Being honest with ourselves is so crucial to move forward.
Thank you so much for sharing.
And thank you Michelle. It is part of us flowering beyond our fears and realizing the love that is there, always there, always waiting kind lady 🤗❤️🙏
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Touching unconditional love and feeling it is life transforming. Bringing it home to ourselves opens our hearts and souls. Yet, we also interact with others who are guarded and not open. This is the next step, to be loving towards those who would do us harm simply for being who we are. It seems like a journey without end as human beings.
Thank you Mark for sharing from your heart and touching us deeply. 💐🙏🏻💞
Thank you Val, it is many steps to reach that beauty that is there waiting for us. It takes many experiences, some so very difficult as you are aware. But those one’s are the most profound, each and every one of those changes us. They are also the ones that bring that truth to the surface to show us what we are becoming. And when it happens there are no words, we will be glad of every step we have ever taken.
Thank you for sharing kind lady, may there be rests among them, healing from their experiences, and much love opened to 🤗❤️🙏
“On-guard is fears brother.” Mark, you hit it straight on the head–to the heart–and soul! Removing all the bits and FINALLY living and speaking the truth. It’s the journey that provides freedom. There are no words to describe it; yet YOU always explain it so beautifully and poignantly, dear friend.
Ah, living our truth. THANK YOU For living out YOURS with so much love and conviction–it oozes to the rest of us and teaches us! Finley and I send our love, prayers, and blessings always, dear Mark. Thank you for being yOU! 🩷💚🙏🏼💙🐾🤗
Thank you Karla (and Finley 🤗). It is a very conditional world with a big learning curve…but…we know in our hearts what is a truth, and we slowly balance closer and closer to what we seek kind lady.
I never knew just what I was getting in for when Spirit asked me did I want to know what love was. Here I am thinking I was just going to meet a lovely lady and fall in love. Haha, I still shake my head at what happened. Spirit spoke of me and poked my head into so many rabbit burrows I never knew existed. But I can look back and see that it is a hard journey but a very beautiful one for us as we see our twisted bits, our attitudes, our pain, our untruths as we walk our paths. But in there is something very beautiful and profound as we straighten our path which allows us to see it all.
Your path speaks beautifully Karla, you have dared to look within and see its truth, your truth, and the love that stands right beside it. He has given us something very poignant and I still try to see how it all fits in together. We reflect ourselves and attract some truly incredible things…so that we can see. Even though we fight it in the beginning, we are being given that understanding, that truth that love is.
Big hugs and blessings to you and Finley coming over the big water, I pray you are all well (and especially your dad too). May your path rest in that love and ever bring that inner smile kind lady, the signal of a very appreciative soul 🤗❤️🙏
You’re welcome, dear friend. When you spoke of the Spirit asking if you wanted to know true love I felt the laugh and joined you! Yes! I thought it was going to be in a PERSON (or shall I say multiple persons? LOL). Nope! It was an INWARD journey (yep, the burrows indeed) and it now can be seen outwardly, too! Oh, Mark, I can say it here at your place for the eyes that might read at mine don’t need to see it (or one set, particularly, that might be reading, lol). I created a boundary (Jesus knows all about boundaries—God made them and kept them!). Unfortunately, when we allow a boundary to be violated, bad behavior will be validated. Boundaries definite and protect our freedom. I’ve not been good at this, Mark. I’m a recovering people pleaser. When I allow access, it comes with responsibility. We don’t throw out “reason” from relationships—we APPLY it (just as God expects me to use wisdom!). You have been such an inspiration to me in Healing from within! I’ve allowed others to “weaponize” boundaries and expectations—yet, I accepted it and believed in it. You are such a responsible heart friend—it’s so easy to give you “access” because YOU KNOW…you just…KNOW. From the deepest well in your soul, you KNOW!
I have found by reducing the access to the level of responsibility that others are CAPABLE OF is the best boundary for me—and the Spirit? There are NO boundaries and that’s the true love that can spill out and appropriately be extended to those around me. All of my repeated destructive patterns stopped. The truth was staring at me in the mirror! Thank God! This path has not been easy—but oh, so liberating! Again, YOU KNOW!
Thank you for the hugs and blessings, my friend. So many transitions—job, my sons moves (again), my Dad and all of us will meet with surgeon and cardiologist on Wednesday (no other options BUT open heart, yet risk is VERY high as Dad, once again, has fluid around his heart only two months after that 11 day stay to drain it and stop infection). Also, I may be moving, Mark. It will be a good thing. With the snow, and two days of me being “down”, and thinking ahead to lawn care and how I’m “progressing” with this cancer, it’s probably time to find a place where lawn care and other things are built into the monthly cost. I was an RV girl. I’ve lived in big and small houses. Made many moves—all those houses burning in CA break my heart. I’m so sad! And all of his here is proven so temporary so I’ll listen to the Spirit as I move ahead. My lease doesn’t end until the end of February so I’m investigating and have several “irons in the fire”. It will be a busy and beautiful week and I pray that for YOU, dear friend. Thank you for inspiring me and so many others as we fan the flames of faith and live the free life in love! 🤍❤️🎶🙏🤗
Haha, oh Karla, I hear you loud and clear. Thank you! When Spirit asked me did I want to know what love is, I had just truly fallen in love for the first time in my early 50’s (long story before that), but it didn’t last long and so we separated. And down I went. I hadn’t touched something so incredible, then to have to go somewhere I had avoided all my life…inside me. And yes, the boundaries I found in going through it. Old one’s, cold one’s, angry one’s, shoot…I even found a sweet one (chocolate) 🤣
Yes, we block people because they step over and abuse that love we give. So I was reduced to that truth, to make me go beyond the fear of hurting people and tell them (gently & truthfully), why I did what I did. And I saw something that shocked me. Because I had done it with love…they heard it…and their behavior changed and/or they left…because it asked them to lovingly look at themselves and see what it was they did. Now this may take conversations…and…to see other things that I had been doing and didn’t see. Many the times in one of those conversations I saw me and went…ooh, that was me and not them.
And of course the hardest, hardest thing of them all…is to see our fears, simply because we block them so hard. My one big fear from childhood was my fear of rejection from what I felt was from my dad. We truly lock those in because as children the only coping strategy is to block. We don’t have the wisdom to speak of how we are feeling so hide it, block it, or just plain old yell and scream at them. Many the time I (and many other children), stick their fingers in their ears and say…I’m not listening to you, na na na na…because of how it makes them feel. Mind you, there are a few adults that still do it today. A little more wiser by walking away, pointing the finger at someone or getting into a one sided discussion because they don’t want to feel that pain. They are still just afraid, because a truth ask’s them to look at themselves and this is quite difficult in where we may be in that.
Now to flatten everyone reading this…it is meant to happen, or how else will we feel all those one side’s of every equation ie experiencing sadness so that we will appreciate happiness when it comes along. And all those many emotions that we have. God gave us this incredible world and it is teaching us everything from every angle it can…so we can see, understand, and reach that love within us all.
And I love how you said a ‘recovering people pleaser’. We just want to be loved, and the more I did the more they expected. We ever attracted those to us and always shaking our heads wondered why they keep coming back. But deep inside our hearts are ever asking to be healed, so much so that we always seem to attract those same people that push our buttons. It may be from different directions but it still hits that one spot that sings at an off key. Not that you ever would Karla, your songs are such magic. Truly a gift kind lady, thank you for ever sharing them 🤗
And the moves…I remember the RV, that was when I met you. Spirit said…come over here and see. And I did see, a lovely heart daring to break free. It now seems like another time, another world. So, so much has happened since then. He has given you something very difficult…but it is those that open our hearts in so many ways. I think He is giving you another place to ease your burden, feel so much more around you without unwanted distractions. And I am listening, praying and sending much healing for your dad, and all his co-healing family…and you too of course. I hope it all goes well and his journey touches that love that he is and brings him home safely kind lady. It is a big thing, as you know, with what it entails to face…those ‘rabbit burrows’ ask a lot of us, but the change…the change is something else when we do look deeper because of it. He gives us these things because HE can see what we ‘will’ see because of them, heal and become what He can see, and transform us into what this journey is all about.
And yes to the fires, they are very bad from what I have seen Karla. Because of what we have here in Australia I can truly relate to them. In an instant everything is gone, and the tragedy of the lives with it. I pray you are all a long way away from it and others safe.
Sending huge hugs to you and Finn, your dad, and family…for the roving lives that this month is bringing. And a little warmth too, we have plenty here at the moment on this 30C day 🤣
Take care Karla, and I pray a healing for you all, and the freedom that its love brings 🤗🥰❤️🙏
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And returned in kind dear lady 🤗🥰🤣😂😀😎🐾🦓🎶🕊️❤️🙏
An excellent post Mark… Coming to that realisation of being HONEST with ourselves is a real game changer…
Honouring and aligning ourselves with Truth can be fraught with many conflicting doubts…
There is truth is speaking from what our hearts tell us, is the right thing to do…
Then there is truth in do we really say that dress looks awful on a friend,, or do we navigate that because at the end of the day that truth is only our held opinion, our belief that the dress doesn’t look good .. So if the person wearing it feels good in it… Agree it suits them… 🙂
We can be truthful without being hurtful…
But I have now found I cannot even say a white lie…. So when that is the case.. I keep silent….
I found myself in a situation listening to my hairdresser the other day…. And I wanted to share some truth of information .. But I knew that hearing that truth she was not ready to hear it… So I kept silent…
I listen intently to my inner compass on what I feel is the right course of action….
We know that keeping silent on some issues is also being complicate in many ways…
And the truth is ever changing as we find out more knowledge… So much so, especially in science… As we discover more revealing things which debunk certain truths we have been led to believe in today..
Our world is ever changing… I just hope dear Mark we all have what it takes to stand up and be honest with ourselves and with others… That way Truth is always upper most in our hearts ..
Much love dear Mark… and thank you xx <3 <3 <3
That being honest with ourselves is a very profound part of the journey Sue, to dare to look inside and become that love that truth is. And you are so right in the path we walk with so many things fraught with a lie, a wobble or teeny twist to not hurt another soul. I still lie outright to the lovely old lady where I get my coffee. It tastes ok but the occasional burst of ‘something’ can be a bit of a shock…but…she will keep doing whatever she is doing thinking it is all ok…because I told her so. I think I’m doing right to not hurt her, but entrenching something that might send her out of business because others will go elsewhere.
And yes, it is our attitude, our intent in how we say things. I don’t have to smash the old lady, I just have to mention that it has the occasional bitterness. Might it be the machine, the coffee, or someone cleaned it out and forgot to remove the soapy water 🤣 I do not have to imply it is just ‘her’ but other possibilities. Which it probably is.
And your hairdresser situation does ever show us something very interesting. As you said, we may know something but as we stand further and further into our truth, it also shows us an ability to ‘sense’ spiritually whether someone is ready for what we are going to say. Mind you, again, sometimes I sense that and the other person will shock me with something I never expect. A lesson for me, I too stumble with the best 🤗
Everything we do keeps us in that on-guard so we don’t hurt others, keeps us out of trouble (but maybe holds us in another way). But slowly this world is building a true heart kind lady, even if some find it difficult to listen. And we only ever give out what we are, hence the biggest change we can make to this world is to heal us first. Like a smile it travels so profoundly, changes many, and brightens a day so much more.
Much love to you also Sue, I pray the garden and the two ‘B’s’ are going well and your world is holding that truth that you are xx 🤗🥰❤️🙏
I believe you are right Mark…. In that hearts are opening to truth and not being so afraid to speak it.. OR listen to it….
It is all a matter of timing, and how truth is delivered as you say….
I wish I could say the Big B was well, but he is not too well at the moment…. A dental surgery removal of teeth which didn’t go well last week… He is suffering and looks like he has been in a boxing ring…
So a little thought and prayer towards his healing Mark I would gladly appreciate…
Biscuit is slowly regaining his confidence to go back outside for longer periods again… Though he has spent most time indoors this past week as it has been so cold and frosty..
And I am well… I can’t be anything other LOL…. Many thanks dear Mark… I so appreciate our deep conversations xx ❤️
Not good to hear about the big ‘B’ Sue, those dentists are not a particularly nice visit. They all involve pain. And I shall indeed send much healing and prayers his way kind lady. You may have to wrap his jaw in cabbage leaf, or gargle a juice from it, and let the garden elements he so lovingly works on become his healer too 🤗
Glad to hear the little ‘B’ is also regaining his mojo after his adventure. I have no doubt if he could talk it may be quite interesting 🤣
And I’ll send you a few degree’s from over here, we have plenty to spare after a 31C yesterday with more to come. In fact I better include you all in my prayers, it has been a particularly strong change into the new year kind lady and I think you all might appreciate a little love in your atmosphere. And thank you my friend, you ever share your heart to us all. Take care, and many blessings for you all xx 🤗🥰❤️🙏
Bless you, dear Mark. I will gladly accept any energy and healing you can muster..
This last week has been challenging on many levels.
Today, the big B looks slightly better. He resists the dentist tomorrow.
Sleeping and some clove oil drops I’ve given .
I smiled at the cabbage poltice, lol.
Though he’s been in that much pain since the extractions, I think he would try anything.
I began to think his jaw had been fractured..
Thank you again, my friend. Sleep has been his healing medicine all week.
Much gratitude to you 🙏 💜xx
Haha…he ‘resists’ the dentist tomorrow. I don’t think there is a soul on this earth that doesn’t ‘resist’ that place kind lady. He has my healing, prayers and love that this is a more gentle, calm journey ❤️🙏
And yes, it does feel like a fractured jaw at times. And I too would try anything else first. I hear if you hit your toe with a hammer it ‘may’ reduce the feeling of pain in your mouth. But…I think that is after you allow the truck to hit you first 🤣
I hope all goes well, sending a double does of healing prayer and a hammer if he needs it xx 🤗❤️🙏
Haha… yes that was a typo or as I answered via the JetPack app, it thought to auto correct to what AI wanted… But it was fitting, I resist as much as I can that place.. 🙂
Thank you for the healing, today he was much improved, and the dentists did some work which helped relieve pressure pain…
He didn’t need the Hammer 🙂 lol.. 🙂
Much love Mark… Big Hugs xx ❤️
Haha, the truth shall still shine even if we ‘resist’ it Sue. Even AI is getting in on the act 🤣
Good to hear it has been relieved at least kind lady, that pain has its own richter scale and relieving it is worth its weight in gold. And glad he didn’t need the hammer 😂
I hope it truly heals Sue and the big ‘B’ can get back to what he loves as the sun gets a bit closer and warms the soil up and sets him free 🤗
Big hugs and much love to you all too kind lady. Oh, and I heard among the comments you have been crafting like crazy. I think maybe its just an itch to get back into the open air and the garden. That will be cured soon xx 🤗🤣❤️🙏
It will as soon as it’s seed planting time. The needles will be put to bed while the trowel gets busy.
Thank you again Mark xx 😘
A comment from my lovely friend Ginger…
Mark, knowing, really knowing, what is truth and what is fiction is a major undertaking. Some people are experts at passing off lies as the absolute God’s honest truth. Sometimes we know it’s a lie, but we want to make it the truth.
I am definitely not there yet. I will still twist the facts in order not to hurt someone’s feelings. I would like to think that those people I love, I love them unconditionally. But reading your words tells me that isn’t so, not with everyone. Yet, I have loved each of my many pets over the years absolutely unconditionally. I think that’s because they never lie in any way, shape or form. They love ME even when I’m having a really bad hair day! I need to be more like my pets were! 🤗
Glad to see this post from you. Hope you are feeling well, enjoying life and the companionship of family and friends. Hope too that you got off to an excellent start in 2025 and that good things are in store for you.
Yeah, I hope your chocolate supply never vanishes. Oh! The horror!! I’m eating Hershey’s Dark Chocolate Kisses as I’m writing this. Nope! Not in a sharing mood today.
Ginger 🦋
Haha, oh I hope my supply never runs dry kind lady, it would be a horror. I can’t even imagine that 🤣
Now you do make a very profound point here Ginger and something everyone needs to see…why is it we are so open to our pets. We love them to bits, we are much more open to them…because we aren’t on-guard to them. We don’t expect anything from them but a big sloppy grin, licked to death and a wagging tail…even on a bad hair day. But everyone else we do not, the on-guard is as automatic as breathing. And that is this conditional life, but. it is teaching us, just as our pets do.
I was amazed when I had it pointed out to me…we treat everyone differently, some we trust, some a bit more, some so much less. Mom’s, dads, friends, workmates are all different…why? We are in a very profound classroom and it has so much to say. Hard sometimes but doesn’t all learning have its hard and easy bits. You have no idea what a connoisseur of chocolate entails 🤣
We all do indeed twist things to not cause pain, some do it to cause pain. But gradually we reach a place and don’t want to be ‘conditional’ anymore and break free of its grasp. And if we dare to look into the ‘why’ of it all and understand, it will open to us. We will attract an answer because we want to go beyond it and be free. And we will, each step is changing us to become that love and happiness we ever search for. It is there, I found it. A few bumps and bruises along the way kind lady, but that is it telling me what I need to see and understand.
And on the day I saw it…I understood that each and every step, and I mean that literally, guides us to that unconditional love. Sometimes we think we are so far from it, but trust me, we do not realize how our experiences change us. Inside us is our intent. We make mistakes, that’s a given. But our intent is to find that love and happiness, just not realizing in the beginning that it is ours we are looking for.
Thank you for sharing Ginger, the year has indeed started well kind lady. I hope yours has too 🤗🥰❤️🙏
I prefer to be truthful, but I also recognize that some truths are difficult for some people to hear, so I try to word my thoughts in ways that the person hearing would be more receptive to hearing. I’m told that’s being tactful, and I’d rather be heard than just blurt out an unvarnished thought, even though it is truthful.
It is a part of our learning, to see that we can say some things and hurt people, say others and make them happy. But to slowly learn that in telling a truth, and as hurtful as it can be sometimes, it builds a trust because of that truth and allows a love because of that. And yes, it needs integrity in what is said Tamara. We most certainly don’t tell a truth like…you look fat in that or some such. It does need tact so we can help, not hinder that journey.
This journey will put us through it all, a conditional path with its twists and bends. But this is so we can see all our results as time goes by and this changes us. We don’t like to see hurt and pain, even though some do that. But at its end is a moment where we finally stop and say…I don’t want to do this any more. And we change. Some nuts are hard to crack, but beneath it all I think they too don’t want to do it anymore either.
Thank you for the share kind lady, may your heart see your truth too 🤗❤️🙏
Fantastic words explaining the “why” behind the guardedness and fear. They are related and it is remarkable to see ourselves being different amongst others….to see me treat another differently because “my” walls are up – it is all based on lack of trust and fear. I will only share so much in front of my dad lets say – because I feel he can hurt me somehow…or not can but will.
But I will share the same thing at a recovery meeting freely that I would not dream of telling him…for fear of judgement.
I know my dad is only one for instance – but I see the guardsmen more clearly now and my behaviors still show me how fearful I actually am…because I believe that someone else CAN hurt me…I still try to twist and turn and make myself into a pretzel for fears of rejection.
But I do learn that it is not necessary. That this awareness is a gift.
I can stop in the madness – get right with self – not judge me or anyone else for the behaviors and then let them pass through. Freedom is what I seek – freedom to be me. Thank you for this post. My truth – is I am grateful for you and everything you share. Thank you again my friend.
This journey is a very beautiful thing Danielle, even though we are indeed that pretzel in the beginning to slowly become that truth. But it is a must. We cannot know that truth unless we go through our untruth. We cannot know and appreciate happiness unless we experience sadness too. And on it goes. So this amazing journey will guide us through it all like that, conditional love into unconditional love, until we are so much clearer than what we started with.
I asked God where is this love and happiness in this mess down here. So He showed me. Not as I expected but very lovingly…and as painful as it was, so that I could see. And it is the same (though many different ways for our own uniqueness), general path for us all. It is the same for anything we learn, a hard beginning but slowly understanding the more we experience it. And in our learning down here, it begins with a rejection by those we love and look up to (and I might add my bit here…interestingly, as we did to Jesus I think. We have to truly appreciate what He has really done for us in this incredible journey down here. When we finally see it, we will understand it all). And our journey is to understand that rejection, find that truth within it, and finally see that this unintentional rejection, usually by our parent/s (your parents also grew up having ‘their’ parents treat them in some ‘rejecting’ way), does in fact ask us to ‘feel’ it into our bones so that when that pure unconditional love is finally touched…you will ‘know it’, see this journey was never a horror show but a very profound experience so that we could see, truly see what love really is.
And my pleasure kind lady. On the day I saw it, it lit me up like nothing else. I just want to share what I found. Something that does have a very great purpose…a very beautiful truth 🤗❤️🙏
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