Glimpses Of You!
While ever my fear was around, I would distract myself with many things. But as I went through and understood my fear, things changed. Lots of things changed. I could stop…and watch a butterfly. Not as it flitted by but truly stopped and appreciated its color, its movement, its journey, and smile because I did so. Watch the world go by in so many ways…and realize that before, my fear was driving me, instead of the other way around. It wanted me to focus on it but because of its pain I focused on everything else. Not because I wanted to, but because it took my focus off ‘it’ in its pain.
But on the day I saw and understood what drove my fear…a huge weight lifted. That fear, that doubt, that unbelief in myself…it blocked and weighed me down. And in its release, physically and emotionally, it was beyond words. And because I had carried it for so long, the let go left me feeling like I was almost floating, emotionally and physically. I was finally at peace in the silence of my mind, a place where I was finally in command…but didn’t need to. No longer ‘needing’ anything, just an acceptance of who and what I now was.
But once there, you can’t go back. That in itself can be a shock. Knowledge is a very powerful thing, it changes you, it moves you, it clears you. But beyond that horizon is now a gift. You can see with new eyes, a new belief, a new love, no longer cluttered with the unknown, but seeing with something never before truly touched. Having finally unblocked your heart, you open a new sense. You may have touched it in part at different times in your life, moments of uncertainty or truly open in a loving way. But now…you feel with that new cleared heart within you, now discovered. You don’t even have to touch with your hands, it’s an inner sense where that touch can understand a tear, a look, words not spoken. Even someone’s intent.
And people and friends will see that change. Some come closer but others that had been close, now move away. They too can sense that change, maybe not understanding it yet because they haven’t reached that clearness within. But you, you have finally reached that summit. That long climb that seemed to go on forever. The view has truly changed in so many ways because of it. Out of habit you may still react to things but you will feel that it no longer has any purpose, you’ve gone beyond it, and let them go. And you now begin to give openly, truly, that love you have ever looked for.
It is there, just a little like a mirage in the heat. Glimpses of it, daring you to take another step towards it. So in this new year, have courage, have a hope, and believe. That love is indeed very much there, you know it is because you have touched it. Glimpses. That summit, your summit is just there…a few more steps and its all yours. And trust me, you will be so glad you did. His love is there for everybody, regardless where you’ve been, what you’ve done. It’s always just your true intent. So look up at that summit, the distance changes with that intent. And once there that love changes, your love changes, simply because you have accepted it. Becoming unconditional, in that acceptance.
Happy New Year to you all! May there be bigger glimpses as you step towards it 🤗🥰🤣❤️🙏
Facing fears, staying curious, being true to yourself. All inspiring concepts for the new year. Wishing you all the best in the new year, Mark! 🙂
Thank you Jane, blessings gratefully received and returned in kind dear lady. It is a powerful journey, many paths so we can eventually see the beauty within us in those glimpses. As your photo’s do for us all kind lady. Have a great year also, and I look forward to more 🤗❤️🙏
It’s a new year and new start for all of us. Thank you for all your inspiring posts, Mark and for being a good travel buddy on our journey.
Why thank you Michele, it has been a pleasure to wander your garden, your heart, and the love ever shared kind lady. Thank you. Let it be a great year for us all 🤗❤️🙏
Happpppppyyyyy Newwww Year Mark!!!! May you have an amazing 2026 ❤️ 🙂
And a Happy New Year to you also Himali, may it be blessed as only love can 🤗❤️🙏
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I love this Mark… Indeed the weight lifts, and it keeps lifting the more layers we release as we let go of fear to embrace the love within ourselves… And as we embrace that inner love, that inner power swells out..
Sometimes I feel I can conquer mountains… then the niggles of doubt can creep back in and that little whisper of fear blows in your ear… But it is never ever as strong a voice as it was.. Because we found strength in that inner core, as we nurtured back to health that wounded child.
My journey I am sure along with many others Mark is a mixture of finding those ‘Glimpses of Self’….. Some days I am many faces but in the core, my heart, I hold so much more peace, because I faced those inner fears, I let many of the outer ones go..
And I walk in the knowledge that I am supported by that invisible hand that holds us all.. As we walk through life and our ups and downs…
Thank you dear Mark, for also being such a supportive hand.. In shining your wisdom upon those who read here. Along with your beautiful encouraging comments you leave amongst your friends here and there… I am so happy that I have such a friend in your goodself Mark..
May this New Year bring you much Happiness, Good Health, and above all Harmony and peace my friend ..
Much love Sue xx 🙏💖💕✨ (
Thank you Sue, your blessings gratefully received kind lady. There is nothing like this community of friends, to speak and listen, believe and hope. To give us courage to share and heal, somewhere we will flower and come about in this world. And I think it will, maybe not down here but somewhere it will truly be appreciated. And yes, this journey does indeed have a very beautiful purpose. We can’t find this love unless it is tested in its opposite. Only finding an appreciation and depth in experiencing one side, like sadness, to really find, and measure (our own) happiness because of it.
So many things in the beginning, so much emotional pain that we ask that question…why me? And it will lead us onward to an answer. And as you have said, some days we can conquer mountains, some days we just sit in its shade. But always those glimpses of what can be, and dare we step towards them. In that you have done well kind lady, so many profound moments at your blog I have found magic. A seemingly random post or comment and a light switches on in my heart. Always a two way street this journey, with many.
And definitely yes, that hand that holds us, a guide if you will is that love. So many moments I question and as I get more wiser it speaks more freely…the listening bit can have its days though 🤣
May your new year lead to many blessings too Sue, for you and those around you. It has been a little testing my friend and hopefully they are all healing well, in heart and mind. Much love and light to you, big hugs and a few degree’s to warm the chill for this beginning of a new path xox 🤗🥰❤️🙏
Thank you Mark.. I smiled at the listening can have it days lol 🙂 I hear you xx
All are well at the moment thank you…
I am typing here almost one handed as Biscuit is laid on my lap, with my laptop balancing on the edge of my knee…
He would along with I most certainly welcome in some warmer degrees right now.. It is Minus -2C outside at the moment..
ooops…. May we keep sharing the LOVE dear Mark…
Have a great weekend… and New Year… Much love your way xxx ❤️ 🙏💖🦋💕✨😸
Haha, I detect a ‘Biscuit’ wanting attention 🤣 Lots of love back at you kind lady…and biscuit too 😂❤️🙏
Yes Biscuit was the culprit. And he got his attention 🤣😻
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“I could stop… and watch a butterfly. Not as it flitted by but truly stopped and appreciated its color, its movement, its journey, and smile because I did so. Watch the world go by in so many ways… and realize that before, my fear was driving me, instead of the other way around.”
Hi Mark, I just finished reading your post and it touched me deeply. That image of you finally being able to stop and truly appreciate the journey of a butterfly—without fear driving you—is so powerful. I’d love to know more about your journey: how did you reach that point? How did u truly get over ur fears? I also would like to learn from you 🙂
Much love and hugs x
Good morning Himali, somewhere in here I was supposed to be writing a book. I started but being ill all the time is distracting 🤗
The main thing is our fears. And the one way to find them is look into all our relationships, with family, friends, others, and find the one common denominator in how they upset us. Find that thing that triggers us. Then follow it back into our childhood. It will be the one thing we feel hurt and rejected by, an action, an attitude towards us. In there we must go. Because as children those things are the most painful thing we have ever felt and so our only handling capacity at that age is to block, and block very hard. We don’t have the wisdom yet to try to break it down, talk it out, heal from it. But…that blocking has a great purpose. It takes us and our fear right through life. Poking us, prodding us to dare us to go beyond those things we fear, and many other things too.
Now, important bit. This fear is passed onto us by those close to us, especially our parents. Now most people say their parents were great, had no problems whatsoever. But as they go deeper they find ‘bits’ that they did have issues with. Now, look at this next bit. Your parents had not resolved their own fears when you were born, so that they ‘unintentionally’ passed on their fears to you. And yes there can be several children but they each have strengths and weaknesses so will respond differently.
How many times have you heard the phrase…your just like mum or dad etc. We look up to those people that loved us and looked after us, unintentionally wanting to be just like them…but taking on their fears as well because of how we were treated by them. It is not deliberate but a natural current in life. Now you have to dig for that underlying fear, find where its pain is the greatest back in your childhood. Chip away until you see that one moment, that one thing that struck you so painfully, it left its fearful mark. In the instant you finally see it and understand it…your free. Anything in this world that you truly understand…you let go of.
Now, this fear thing lasts most of your life, it needs to so you can learn from it. Even though it feels like its taking you deeper and deeper into it. It has a purpose, it builds you up until you do finally dare to go find it, so that on the day you see it for what it is, it will be so profound a moment that you will appreciate each and every step you have ever taken in this life because of that. I’ll leave you with that kind lady, much to digest for your journey. Up top are the basics of what I learnt from Spirit. The Journey, The Love etc. Much Love and light for your path kind lady, each step does indeed have a purpose 🤗❤️🙏
” In the instant you finally see it and understand it…your free. Anything in this world that you truly understand…you let go of.”
I don’t fully get this part on how to truly UNDERSTAND it? and what difference does even understanding make? I don’t get it 🙁
An example, and you can apply this to anything. When you first begin to drive a car, you are nervous, unsure of the road rules, scared to make a mistake and have an accident. It’s all new, constantly thinking about it, you do not fully understand it. If I come back in 18 or 24 months time your throwing donuts on the road, speeding around, feel like you have great control…and barely thinking about it…because you now understand. Everything you experience you think of less and less, it isn’t bothering you, you understand it. While ever there is something your not sure of constantly sits up near the front of your mind. You don’t think of the car now until you hop in to focus on driving it. Once you get out its no longer there. Fear will do the same…but because we don’t understand it, it keeps us in that state. The day I finally saw why I held that fear, the let go was immense. An entire lifetime holding it, on guard for it, tires you out emotionally and physically. The day you understand it and let go…its like finally letting go the weight of the moon. The relief is incredible, the freedom beyond words. We don’t realize just how much weight is in that load we carry. It’s a lifetime weight…until we understand it. Think of anything that has confused you or you have really struggled to understand. When that aha moment comes along…what is your reaction. Its a big smile, a yahoo call to the heavens, its a relief to finally understand, a load on your mind let go 🤗❤️🙏
One thing I didn’t mention is this…if I tell you how to drive a space shuttle, your interest/understanding is probably nil, so it won’t affect you. But anything you care about, the interest/understanding becomes more important and affects you accordingly. If its about your squirrels, especially understanding their welfare in the winter, it affects you strongly so you want to understand it. And now that you do, because you have experienced it, the worry becomes less and less and you enjoy it more and more. But if you tried and tried to feed them and it wasn’t working, you become stressed about it, simply because you don’t understand why they aren’t responding. Your empathy and compassion that life has taught you doesn’t like to see/feel pain so you try to understand and heal those things that you care about. If you can’t understand, it leaves you stressed 🤗❤️🙏
The car example is really really bad because I still don’t have a drivers license and I failed my drivers license exam multiple times because I just get too nervous and too stressed and I make a lot of mistakes on the test day 😔😔😔😭😭😭
Aah, of all examples to pick Himali. Well, your squirrels one is much better then. That you understand fully 🤣❤️🙏
Haha 😀 lol absolutely!!!
Happy New Year to you too! Leaving fear behind is so freeing; we no longer need to carry burdens that weighed us down for years. Teaching ourselves to like and then to love ourselves is a massive shift. the old self-loathing gets replaces with a new peace, a new calm. Those things change how we see ourselves, the world and how other see us, for we are no longer in victim mode, but have truly learned to love. Love is the most important thing we can learn in this lifetime! Peace to you!
Why thank you Tamara, very beautifully spoken kind lady. That fear is indeed a guide to test us to go beyond it and be free. Find our doubts and dare us each step we take. And in it all the beauty of that compassion and empathy slowly understood and change us within. And yes, that love slowly drives us past that victim mode, into another world. That belief of ourselves and an appreciation of what it took to get there. A very profound journey. Thank you for sharing a path well taken kind lady. May your new year be full of that love found 🤗❤️🙏
Happy New Year, 🎊 very soon, Mark! I haven’t made my way back to WordPress, or the blog, but I saw that you posted, and wanted to read it. I love when you speak from this gorgeous place of your full freedom in your heart being cleared. Wishing hope and peace for all people, everywhere, in the same way. May we all feel that unconditional love so true and pure and undeniable! Thank you! 🙏🏼 🤗
And thank you kind lady. It is a testing path but its beauty is in its understanding as we go from one path to its opposite and see that it does have a very beautiful meaning. Maybe not so much in the beginning but in those experiences the empathy and compassion building a truth, going beyond the bumps and seeing that we aren’t that fear we held…and dare to free ourselves in going through it. Great share Ka, may your new year keep that beautiful path kind lady 🤗❤️🙏