Decided to dance a little deeper in life, and wow can spirit dance!

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Miracles Inside Us All!

And they can be found. It is a difficult life but fortunately there is a healing for that inner sadness that follows us, and it is a simple thing…just a little hard to find.

It’s hiding place we cover over and forget. But it does leave a trail to follow. Just follow that pain in our lives, that common denominator in all our relationships back to our childhood and dig deeply to the why it makes you feel as it does back then. That is when it was born.

Understand that pain and it will open like nothing else you have ever touched…and in there is that miracle.

It is because it takes so long to find and so painful a journey that we finally see and appreciate what we have gone through to find it…and…when you see it, it all makes sense. You finally see and understand why.

Happy Easter one and all, may all your miracles be like today’s. True love is indeed that miracle, and wait till you see it…there are no words for its beauty ๐Ÿ˜€ โค๏ธ ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿฝ ๐Ÿฆ‹

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  1. I seemed to have missed this post mark๐Ÿค” Maybe because Iโ€™m still waiting to feel it! The infinite flow of joy, love and peace that I only seem to feel now and againโค๏ธ Itโ€™s definitely a deep journey within that IAM truly on now๐Ÿฅฐ sending love and thanks for tuning into us all๐ŸŽถ๐Ÿ™

    • Mark Lanesbury

      Dear Barbara, of all the things we touch that sense of purpose and acceptance of what we are, is the most profound. We are touched by it in different parts of our lives until that one place in our hearts we have covered as children to protect us from its pain, is uncovered, and in seeing and understanding it…it all comes together in a rush to leave us in big beautiful tears because we finally see that each and every step was indeed a miracle that has now made us whole. We can indeed then see the forest for the tree’s, just in understanding that one core part of us. In fact it is so profound a moment that within yourself you will be glad of each and every step you have taken, and especially the so called bad, because they were the ones to push you the most, hold your heart the most and ask you to feel it so that it will speak to you in those experiences…and in doing so your building that love inside, your love. At the moment you are struggling in what has to be the most painful journey when you lose your partner of life, and it is asking you to do one thing. To look within and ask yourself what hurts the most…and it will always be that loss of that love and connection with Tom. But there is where it is asking another question, yes you are missing that…but beneath that is another ‘loss’. Look back through all your other relationships, be they friends or relatives and find the one thing they all have in common that you react to, as in by treating you a certain way and you feel hurt by. And then follow that back into your childhood where a parent/s (or those you loved and looked up to), made you feel the same way. In there is a lifelong ‘loss’, a feeling of rejection or not being loved in some way to which its hurt and pain finally made you block that pain. And as you grew up you always asked those relationships to not do or say this or that because it makes you feel that same feeling of hurt, pain or rejection, a belittling of who you feel you feel you are. Find that one thing and dare to see that little girl again standing with that pain and ask yourself how is it really making you feel inside, that loss and hurt that they make you feel. Dare to see that and it will speak to you. And when it does it will say the one thing that you have been fearful of all your life, that wall you had built so that it could never hurt you again was in fact locking it in, never resolved and forever keeping you ‘on guard’ to every single moment of your life. See that understanding and you will let go a lifetime of pain, see truly what you have ever fought for, and become that understanding. And in that moment you will understand every action you have had in so many things, and let them go. You will see that Tom has been the greatest part of your journey in loving and guiding you to become what you will now see. And yes you will indeed still feel that loss…but…in understanding all you have done together, you will open and love him all the more because of it…and let go that loss because it is built on the loss of the love that you have never been able to give yourself because of that childhood hurt. That pain and rejection in whatever form that it took had always kept you in doubt of your worth so that is what you will have always projected ‘out there’, you can do no other as we all project what we are. If we are happy, we give out that happiness, if we feel unloved, that is what we give out automatically. We don’t even realize we are doing it. See that inner pain, resolve it…and be free…and a peace like no other will hold your heart and finally let go what is no longer you in that understanding. It will speak when you are ready dear lady, and truly, a love like no other will open inside and all will be as it should be. It will all feel exactly as it should, and the love that you find, your love, will show you a peace like no other. That love is an unconditional love because you have removed that ‘condition’ you had placed on it, that inner fear has always kept it at bay. Find it, resolve it, and the love for you and everyone else will flow like a mountain stream. Big hugs dear lady, I know this is very difficult, but Tom is cheering you on, of that I have no doubt. Love and light from me too โค๏ธ ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿฝ ๐Ÿฆ‹

  2. Great blog post Mark๐Ÿคฉ From pain to peace โ˜ฎ๏ธ Miraculous.

    • Mark Lanesbury

      Thank you Dave, I think we are indeed a miraculous people. And it is a difficult journey but like all we go through in our emotions we have to experience one side to know and appreciate the other. Experiencing sadness to really appreciate happiness, and on through them all to that final touch that is ‘unconditional love’ after experiencing so much ‘conditional love’ with all our fears down here. I was blessed with being very briefly allowed to ‘touch’ unconditional love and it truly is nothing like we describe down here, it is even truly beyond our language it is so incredible. So each and every stumble down here is a blessing in disguise as it will arm us so completely with what ‘unconditional’ is not, so that when we arrive we will ‘know and appreciate’ what we have gone through to now be in such a magnificent and beautiful place because of it ๐Ÿ˜€ โค๏ธ ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿฝ ๐Ÿฆ‹

      • Great comment Mark! Do you feel your ‘spiritual experience’ has changed how you perceive the world? I am not familiar with your blog or story, but find your insights fascinating. Stay connected. โ˜ฏ๏ธ๐Ÿ˜‡๐Ÿ‘

        • Mark Lanesbury

          Most certainly Dave, our life is to go through all that we do to slowly gain the wisdom and love that it is built on, and many events will ask us to question what is it all for or is there anything there. Until one day we see something within us so that we do finally ‘see’ that it all does have purpose indeed. And as an example…I can explain until I’m black and blue in the face what it is to climb a mountain, but until you do experience that mountain climbing you can’t truly understand. Life is like that. It is full of that wisdom from when you do experience so much conditional love bound by those fears we carry with us…to suddenly experience and see through that pain we hold and finally understand it is such a profound journey. And when you see and understand it, it changes you…forever. It’s like falling in love and getting married, we may not realize it at first but that very experience changes us, it enlightens us about love in so many ways, in us or others. That is the beginning of understanding, until one day we dare to look inside those painful parts of us, the ones that brings us to anger and hurt from others. Simply because we have never understood why and finally one day dare to look inside us to finally see that all that anger was our fear, that childhood fear we have ever kept hidden away behind the wall we have built over our heart to stop any pain. And by looking deeply into the why we feel as we do, suddenly an understanding will open, a reason will show itself, and in that one moment you will understand your life, see that every single step had great purpose. It had created the very thing for you to be able to see the one love that our fear kept at bay…your love. As a child we had thought that this hurt from our mom or dad (or both), was due to something being wrong with us, built doubts within us or a feeling of rejection that we carry on through our lives. But in finally seeing it, you understand that all of our loves were hindered by those fears, especially our own. But when we finally see that it was built from our parents in their treatment of us, we then see that they too were also brought up by their parents, those they loved and looked up to, and also received that fearful love from their parents. And in that very wisdom we will see that our parents fearful love is unintentionally passed onto us because they know no better, it isn’t that they don’t love us, they just don’t know any other way to love us. So in that one moment we lose that inability to love ourselves, finally letting go the ‘conditional love’ we have ever bound ourselves by and finally give an unconditional love to ourselves which is then naturally given out to others. And also in that one act, we can now see our journey in others, see that they are all struggling to understand what it all means and find that understanding. And the most amazing part is…they all have to do it individually so that they too can understand that unconditional love. If we try to give it to them they cannot understand, they too have to experience it to find its true meaning. We can guide, as I do here, but it cannot be understood unless they take that path within themselves…unconditionally. If I try to force anything it automatically becomes a condition to that other person. I would be trying to lead them instead of them ‘wanting’ to do it on their own. Oh, that’s right, you asked me did it change my perception of the world? ๐Ÿคฃ Most certainly kind sir, it changed everything. It’s like that first time you fall in love. It changes everything for us inside and out. But once having gone there, there is no going back because it has changed us forever, and we spend the rest of our lives looking for it ‘out there’, until one day we realize it isn’t out there but gently, quietly waiting for us to look within. And if you wish, my story is up on the top menu by clinking on the ‘About’ link ๐Ÿ˜€ โค๏ธ ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿฝ ๐Ÿฆ‹

          • Your story is inspirational Mark! Every time that I hear stories like yours, it reminds me that my mind has wandered and I am no longer present.๐Ÿ’ญ๐Ÿ™Š

            It’s like I become hypnotised by my thoughts and lose direction. But when I hear the truth, a huge light bulb ๐Ÿ’ก๐Ÿ’กinside me grows brighter and brighter! Thank-you for that timeless reminder to turn inwards. ๐Ÿ˜‡โ˜ฏ๏ธ

            • Mark Lanesbury

              And thank you for your comment kind sir, I’m glad it at the least can give a guidance so as to question ourselves of our path and ‘feel’ its truth. Our journey does test our hearts in many ways, and it will always show us many things. But of them all is that yearning to find that love and happiness in our lives by going through them all, touching each and every emotion so that we can be guided and finally realize in the end that our treasure of that love and happiness is in fact ‘not’ out there, but gently, quietly waiting for us to look within and face our fears. That wall built to protect us from its pain, but covering our hearts as well. Enjoy the journey my friend, in time it will indeed show you that treasure ๐Ÿ˜€ โค๏ธ ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿฝ ๐Ÿฆ‹

              • Thank-you Mark โ˜ฏ๏ธ๐Ÿ˜‡ Stay blessed๐Ÿ•ฏ๏ธ

              • Mark Lanesbury

                And you also kind sir, have a great day! ๐Ÿ˜€ โค๏ธ ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿฝ ๐Ÿฆ‹

  3. Thank you, Mark, for the essential and love-filled reminder. We are energy incarnate, right? So many miracles just waiting to happen.

    • Mark Lanesbury

      That we are, and yes they are. I’m still blown away often as something comes through in that awareness to show me something wonderful. I just have to be open, clearing those parts that hold us back and just be a beautiful, wonderful flower of love…as we all are. And speaking of beautiful flowers, I hope your journey with the virus is now definitely in your favor and set you free. It must feel like one of those ‘humps’ that this life throws at us indeed ๐Ÿ˜‚ ๐Ÿคฃ โค๏ธ ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿฝ ๐Ÿฆ‹

  4. Beautiful, Mark. Thank you!

    • Mark Lanesbury

      And thank you dear lady, I hope you had a great Easter with you and your family ๐Ÿ˜€ โค๏ธ ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿฝ ๐Ÿฆ‹

  5. Well said Mark…
    Each story of what is inside may be different.. But the deep dives into those wounds are needed.. Like an abscess, the wound goes deeper than surface level.. And we gloss over and ignore so often the symptoms until they are ready to burst..

    The heart so often holds onto its wounds.. Once we open the heart, and allow all to surface we begin the healing process..

    Love and Blessings dear Mark.. and thank you for sharing your wisdom.. โค๏ธ

    • Mark Lanesbury

      Well said dear lady, and we do cover our hearts with life’s pains. We just need a little courage to dare to look deeper and find that miracle awaiting its freedom.
      Love and light to you also my friend, I hope life’s scars are healing nicely in the wisdom you have found ๐Ÿ˜€ โค๏ธ ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿฝ ๐Ÿฆ‹

      • Exactly Mark…. the deeper we dive the more we find those inner treasures just waiting to be brought up to the surface and out into the Light.. โค๏ธ

  6. Yes they can be found inside us the only way is open your heart and look within, deeply! All the answers will unfold one by one with pain but be fearless and keep going within in silence your inner child will thank you in the end when you arrive to the light! Beautiful post Mark! Hope you had a great Easter!

    • Mark Lanesbury

      Have enjoyed it immensely dear lady, though I forget some chocolate to cheer myself with ๐Ÿคฃ And yes, as you have said, we will slowly get closer to life’s meaning and bask in its light if we push ourselves into that hard place ๐Ÿ˜€ โค๏ธ ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿฝ ๐Ÿฆ‹

  7. Ananda

    Lovely advice Mark. Pain is indeed a great teacher ๐Ÿ’™๐Ÿ™

    • Mark Lanesbury

      Yes it is kind sir, it holds our attention right through this life so that we will eventually see a very great happiness behind it all ๐Ÿ˜€ โค๏ธ ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿฝ ๐Ÿฆ‹

  8. Anonymous

    Following the trauma back to our childhood is an enlightening yet painful journey. With emotions left undone and not cared for, it is indeed like we relive each experience as if it was yesterday. We are forced, if you will, to go through it instead of around it hoping eventually the pain will lessen.

    Iโ€™m taking one pocket of darkness at a time and truly feeling each one this time around. I know I will never truly heal, but the miracle in this will be to get to the other side.

    Thank you for this, Mark, and the reminder that there is hope no matter how small ~๐Ÿ•Š

    • Mark Lanesbury

      It most certainly is a very hard and painful journey and you have explained it very well. And each and every step does in fact ask you to look deeper and will show itself in your heart as you experience each and every one of them and you will indeed heal as time goes by. The major inner fear is the one that spreads its tentacles into many parts of your life but with great love it keeps tapping you on the shoulder. But that is so one day you will dare to look, dare to follow that common theme in all those hurtful relationships back to that childhood where it was born, and in there will be your answer. And I swear to you that in daring that courage is an answer that will truly set you free. When I saw mine I burst into tears and let go the grief of that ‘on guard’ that had been bound by a lifetime, and in seeing its truth…it all unraveled, let go, and set me free. It is in living that childhood moment and realizing the ‘why’ you had blocked and hidden it, and when you see it, it will all make sense. So much so that you will look back on everything you have done…and never wished you had done anything else. It will be your journey, for you, to find you. That conditional love you had bound yourself with based on your fear is so you can understand you and in doing so understand just what unconditional love is. And it will do that for any who dare. Have that courage my friend, there is indeed a rainbow at its end ๐Ÿ˜€ โค๏ธ ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿฝ ๐Ÿฆ‹

    • When I was still raw I feared I would never heal for the pain was still so very fresh and I didnโ€™t understand then where my healing journey would bring me. It seemed too daunting of a task to be able to do it in my own lifetime.

      When I was starting on my healing journey the universe sent me 4 psychics, over the span of a couple of years, in different locations, all said almost the identical messages. โ€œI feel very strongly that I need to come to you to give you a message.โ€ When I asked them to proceed, they each said, โ€œYou chose your troubles before you came into this life!โ€

      That troubled me the first time I heard it, so I shoved the message aside, thinking it was from the dark side.

      The second time I heard it I thought it was an interesting coincidence that it happened again but I ignored it. By that time I thought God may be trying to tell me something bit didnโ€™t know what it meant.

      The third time I was shocked, an knew that messages which come in threes must not be ignored but I really didnโ€™t know how to process it.

      The fourth time was a miracle time because that time when I asked โ€œWhyโ€ the woman was able to tell me that it was because I had the inner strength to learn from it and then be able to teach others, except that I hadnโ€™t discovered that strength yet.

      When I asked โ€œwhy me?โ€ She smiled and said โ€œWhy not?โ€ I asked her if this was true of each of us, and she smiled and said that now I was beginning to understand a truth about life.

      If we each agreed to our troubles here before we were born, and it it to teach us things we would otherwise not learn, that also means we each have the undiscovered strength and ability to not only go through our own healing, but through the miracle of our inner transformation, of learning to turn poison into medicine, that miracle of miracles we would be able to help others who had suffered too!

      This changed my whole perspective from feeling like a vulnerable victim who feared being preyed upon by more unscrupulous people to discovering my inner remote control to take charge of myself and my healing.

      Having this information didnโ€™t fast track me past the difficult stages of healing, but it did help lift my mind out of dark thoughts and help me to see a bigger purpose.

      Miraculously, we each have this inside of ourselves!

      Step one I found to profound inner healing was to teach myself to like myself! I had to learn to practice suspending judgment of myself, to practice speaking kindly and gently to myself instead of harshly and cruelly.

      Step one took me a long time to accomplish, thatโ€™s a toughie, but the other steps flow much faster and seem to speed by when that step is learned!

      What happens when we find ourselves right back in the negative mindset we were before and struggling to pull ourselves up?

      Do Step 1 again!

      Rince and repeat! Keep redoing step 1 as often as needed!

      I found each time I revisit Step 1, it helps me on an even deeper level, but my time there is shorter and shorter, sometimes only a few minutes long!

      The miracle of our healing is we discover that we are the River pilots of our own boats, navigating through the waters of life!

      I have written a long response here, unintended, but I will share this also on my own blog!

      Peace to you and to all who come across these words! Blessings!

      • Mark Lanesbury

        That is it all to a ‘T’ dear lady, we will indeed have the strength and courage to find us. This very journey shows us ‘conditional’ in all that we do, and as we dare to face ourselves in so many ways we begin to learn that it is all built on our fears…but very important fears.
        They are the biggest teachers of them all. We must experience sadness to know and appreciate happiness too. So on we go through every single emotion and understanding within them so that eventually we will experience the unconditional love we seek, the one inside us that is always there but just covered over by our fears.
        And in experiencing them all we then become those guides and teachers that others can see and feel to give them hope and courage to take their own steps. And they will, in their own time and place as is needed. That is the one thing about this journey that may be hard to see at first, that we can lead a horse to water but you can’t make it drink. Everyone must do this journey at their own pace AND no other can interfere, simply because the journey would not go where it needs to if it is ‘given’ to another. It’s like if I gave someone $500 a week for nothing, they would spend it all over the place with no appreciation of its worth, but if they have to work for it, only then would they stop and consider is it worth spending the money on this or that. They are then appreciating their worth in that event.
        Anyway Tamara, you have indeed covered ‘your’ very difficult and hard path to find that love within, that is a worth that no one can take away, it is you. Be proud of that, love that…and be free in its discovery dear lady ๐Ÿ˜€ โค๏ธ ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿฝ ๐Ÿฆ‹

        • Thanks so much Mark for your very supportive words! When we have walked those dark nights of the soul and have come out whole, it feels good to be able to share with others, not only to be heard but to create a conversation to others can see some steps of they wish to follow what may resonate within them! I feel this is our task now, to write things which can be helpful for anyone visiting and who connects with the thoughts! Blessings!

          • Mark Lanesbury

            That we do dear lady, by sharing what we found it can indeed give another courage to take a step, believe in what they do and have faith that there is indeed something very beautiful awaiting at the end of that rainbow. Thank you for sharing yours ๐Ÿ˜€ โค๏ธ ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿฝ ๐Ÿฆ‹

  9. This is beautiful, Mark! You understand love so well from the journeys, pain, and the search within. Happy Easter to you dear friend! ๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿค—โœ๏ธ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿป๐ŸŽถ

    • Mark Lanesbury

      Thank you dear lady, just sharing the love I was given. Have a beautiful and Happy Easter as well Karla ๐Ÿ˜€ โค๏ธ ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿฝ ๐Ÿฆ‹

      • Youโ€™re so welcome, Mark! Have a blessed and beautiful day and week! ๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ™๐Ÿป๐ŸŽถ๐Ÿค—

  10. It is a beauty that we crave and we fear. It can be a difficult journey to find but the reward is the miracle.

    • Mark Lanesbury

      Ooh, I love that, well spoken Pam. It touches everything with just those few words. As those heartfelt truths normally do. Thank you for sharing, and have a Happy Easter too dear lady ๐Ÿ˜€ โค๏ธ ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿฝ ๐Ÿฆ‹

  11. Bringing love to the wounds of our hearts and being grateful for our connection in the divine. This life is a miracle and it keeps getting better and better as the light shines through the โ€œstainedโ€ glass.

    • Mark Lanesbury

      It most certainly does shine through the beauty of that stained glass dear lady, that rainbow that is life. And it is through our own wounds that we find the love we seek, waiting gently to dare that step inwards. Thank you for sharing, and I hope you have a beautiful rainbow Easter ๐Ÿ˜€ โค๏ธ ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿฝ ๐Ÿฆ‹

  12. Beautifully said Mark. Sending love to the wounds of the heart brings miracles and peace. Happy Easter ๐Ÿค๐Ÿ•Š๐Ÿค

    • Mark Lanesbury

      Thank you kind lady, and many Easter blessings to you and yours also. Happy Easter! โค๏ธ ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿฝ ๐Ÿฆ‹

  13. You “get it,” don’t you. Which is pretty amazing. Happy Easter to you my friend!๐Ÿฅš๐Ÿ‡๐Ÿพโœ๏ธ

    • Mark Lanesbury

      Thank you Cindy, it is but having touched and understood that I wish to share such profound beauty. Yes it is hard…but the destination is beyond words…and yes, we have been given a miracle. Happy Easter to you and yours also dear lady โค๏ธ ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿฝ ๐Ÿฆ‹

  14. Following the trail! Even brought my trail mix. Happy Easter, Mark ๐ŸŒท

    • Mark Lanesbury

      Thank you dear lady, and I love that idea of bringing our own trail mix. That we most certainly do, feeding that very part of us so that we do finally see that miracle that is us. Happy Easter my friend, and may your journey be that miracle ๐Ÿ˜€ โค๏ธ ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿฝ ๐Ÿฆ‹

      • Miracles upon miracles waiting to be found ๐Ÿ™‚ Happy Easter ๐Ÿฃ โค

        • Mark Lanesbury

          That there is dear lady. Wait till you feel that unconditional, then it will be all so worthwhile, every step we have taken. May you also have a Happy Easter too โค๏ธ ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿฝ ๐Ÿฆ‹

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