Where do I begin…I mean really? I had learned something many years ago, but found it so confronting that I had hesitated in applying it to the many situations I found myself in. This world allows only so much, many lines drawn in the sand or else…else what?
Where is that line you ask, upon receiving the 50th definition of what is allowed. The one that bespeaks of the terror and horror’s of what will happen if you do cross that line.
As a spiritual healer and empath, spirit has taken me on a great journey. I wanted to ‘see’ the truth of our paths, and understand its purpose. Little did I know that the first and last was to feel and face myself, for within that was a great truth…an unconditional one. For myself, and in that understanding, for others also. Hence the dilemma.
This world says, as a healer (or any other modality), that you must never ‘get close’ to your client, you must apply yourself diligently from a professional standpoint and never cross that ‘line’.
So off I went, manual in hand to heal the world.
And then it happened…I was asked to see a lady who had been attacked and almost killed by an assailant. I walked into her hospital room and in that one instant that our eyes met, I felt every emotion known to man…and many others that I had never touched before. The utter desolation that came from her as she cried out was so deep that she at first couldn’t make a sound, until finally a heart wrenching sob broke open a heart that was closed over from the shock of what had happened to her, and was something that I will never forget.
Her arms opened to just be held, supported, from something that her mind was staggering to comprehend. And allow her to release the fear that was locked inside and help her find a balance so she could understand.
I opened my arms as my heart went out to her and hugged her from somewhere I didn’t even realise I had within. At the time I didn’t realise just what had happened, only that I could not give to this lady without being totally unconditional. There are no rules when you stand in this space.
And as the days and weeks went by, I also saw that it could be no other way. I either stood in my truth within and healed from that place, or I followed the rules and gave from a superficial place that would have been felt by her and closed her heart back over, never releasing what had happened.
And over that time of being together in that place, it allowed her to go very deeply within and release a lifelong fear that had always kept her in a dark place, interfering with her life in so many aspects. In doing so we had become quite close because of what had been so closely shared. It is an awkward thing to understand, simply because you are sharing a love, an unconditional love, something that we all want so desperately in our lives but blocked by this conditional world.
But as time went by we both realised our journey together had a purpose, to look within ourselves, heal what no longer had purpose, and then move on. I also learned a huge thing in that healing, to be able to ‘touch’ anothers heart, go through whatever feelings they produce to be healed, and let go unconditionally. To heal by the integrity and love that unconditional is.
Yes, I crossed so many lines of this world, but ‘we’ healed two people in that journey, and closed over and healed the lines that this world builds.
And the manual…well, it had a purpose…so that I could see its folly and understand a greater truth within us all ❤️