Decided to dance a little deeper in life, and wow can spirit dance!

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As Above, So Below!

Hey guys, I’m just going to put my soul on the table for a minute or two. Not the real one, just the figurative one ๐Ÿ˜€

The ‘event’ that I could feel coming on has finally arrived. It has caught me out a bit as I knew it was something to do with the physical side of me but this was ‘out there’. I have emphysema (C.O.P.D) from working in the coal industry and I’ve had a very large allergic reaction to a medicine I was on and it has really sent my body into a spin. The more amazing part has been where I am being blocked in all aspects of trying to heal from the outside ‘medical’ world. Spirit only said I need to ‘see’ something within myself…as in, I am going to have to deal with it myself to go where it needs to.

I’ve had three trips by ambulance in the last year with regard to this as this medicine has made my immune system go haywire and they just observe you for an hour or two and as soon as you say yes to the magic question ‘are you feeling better’ they push you out the door. Even my specialist I made an appointment with has totally disappeared (I thought it was just the covid-19 virus distracting so many at this time so us ‘normal’ sick people just got shuffled down the line but a phone call would have been nice). There is no medicine to replace what I had been using, my doctor has been ignoring me (simply because he can do nothing), and my questions must go to the local chemist to find what the cause is below the obvious ingredients. And it appears my allergy to sulphur (its a preservative in everything (especially food), as well as sometimes part of the healing in medicine), is in my medicine but for some strange reason it has only now decided to react. But strange I think not, as I ‘feel’ it has been waiting for its time in my journey.

And just to really ram home the timing of this event, I had caught pneumonia in june and as I’m also allergic to all antibiotics (most groups have sulphur in them), the only way I could heal myself besides my own hands on healing (and a thank you to Rhapsody for her recent distance Reiki, I slept like a baby ๐Ÿ˜€), was to reduce that medicine so my immune system could restore itself and fight off the pneumonia (the medicine is a steroid and an immune suppressant to stop my immune system attacking my lungs, emphysema is an autoimmune disease). And you wouldn’t believe it, the really bad constant headaches I had suffered from for years from crushed disks in my neck…stopped. So I went on and off the medicine over the next six weeks and sure enough as soon as I stopped it, the headaches went, as soon as I restarted back they came. I was so stunned that I had in fact been feeding the headaches because of this medicine, not because of the injury. And then to really make sure I was going to go through something and face it bare bones, over the years I found that I was allergic to all over the counter and some scripted pain killers and couldn’t even fight the headache pain. I stopped testing the script ones because the allergic reactions were so severe I just wasn’t game to keep killing myself. For 4 years I have been bringing my brain to the boil for nothing (grrrrr, while shaking head). They kill you while trying to heal you…go big pharma โ˜น๏ธ

Actually that isn’t true, I’m now about to face something that is very important in my life and couldn’t have got here without this journey….I have to remember that. It is what this world gives us so that we can find us, and that love we so diligently search for is in fact through that pain, emotional or physical…otherwise we will never appreciate the beauty that we are, in that very discovery โค๏ธ

I can feel specifically that this is a rebirth, a letting go of the old to bring in the new. I am effectively allergic to the 21st century and I am letting so much of it go and it is an interesting experience to lay at night not being able to breath and ‘feel’ that you could die at any moment as the emergency ventolin is working less and less. Spirit showed me death so that I could see it truthfully and it holds no fear for me (‘The Death’ up on my menu bar at the top)…but I have never actually experienced it (there is a very big difference in its totality), so I’m being shown my mortality as ‘The Death’ did in a way that leaves nothing to question but the way I am facing it by who I am within.

And amazingly, as I am ‘clearing’ myself physically, my spiritual sensitivity flows more smoothly. My inner ‘sense’ feels more balanced. It is like I’m stepping out of my own way even further. Even physically my sense of taste and smell has increased dramatically. Hey, I can smell the insides of a chocolate wrapper from a thousand yards…go figure ๐Ÿ˜‚ ๐Ÿคฃ

So at this point dear friends, I am doing as I tell all others…I follow my heart, the love that I know I am, and going where my highest good shall be found. In this I am being shown a deeper meaning to the beauty that I have seen and felt. But I do know this, and amazing as it may sound…after seeing so much pain in life but understanding that it does have a great purpose in the love that we all seek, I know that if I was to die (and I do not know if I am), I will go to an absolutely magnificent place…but…I now know that ‘down here’ holds just as much beauty and I would miss it totally, simply because…with no fear it all changes and down here is just as majestical as heaven is…and as I ‘feel’ this a tap on my shoulder from spirit says ‘as above, so below’…we just have to understand it, to see it in our journey. We are given this with so much love because that is its design. It can do no other but gradually show us its beauty, that beauty that is love and within us all…wherever we are.

P.S. I’ve probably built up enough credits for a miracle or two so who knows, I’ll ‘see’ something amazing and heal myself. And shoot, speaking of miracles, I’ll probably get ‘un-blocked’ and can comment everywhere again…see, there is always a rainbow in our circumstances somewhere…and no, I think the chocolate may have to go this time, wherever I am ๐Ÿ˜‚ ๐Ÿคฃ

P.S.S. If I go quiet for a while I may be having a little chat with spirit for a bit, somehow I don’t think this is going to be a quick journey. Maybe I’ll get to do another trip up to heaven again. I wonder what varieties of chocolate they have, I must ask ๐Ÿ˜‚ ๐Ÿคฃ

P.S.S.S. If it is my time, keep an eye out for a white feather. I’ll be whipping around somewhere to show you all I can still tickle your heart and bring a smile ๐Ÿ˜‚ ๐Ÿคฃ

Take care my friends, may your journey give you a few cloudy days so that you will appreciate the sunshine that our world is…above and below ๐Ÿ˜€ โค๏ธ ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿฝ ๐Ÿฆ‹

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  1. My dearest friend. So much I didnโ€™t know and yet I did. I knew your journey is filled with challenge and struggles, I just didnโ€™t know which and what. It would be a lie to say that my heart doesnโ€™t hurt to read about your struggles, but I also know how important they are to shape us into who we are meant to be. Without, you wouldnโ€™t be who you are today, and let me tell you that you are pretty darn amazing and special to me. I know that sometimes the pain gets us down and itโ€™s hard to face scary times alone, and yet I donโ€™t know of another person more prepared than you, more in the know and aware, more conscious than you.
    I see a few things here and I will go to work with some of my own research of what can help. Iโ€™m sure you have done so but there is not everything you can give and do for yourself. Energy healing and reiki being one of those things and from now on you will take a regular, weekly seat in my sessions. I will send you more detail so you can be open to receive. Perhaps we will set a time each week to make it easier.
    I donโ€™t believe in big Pharma and I fight an autoimmune disease as well as you know. All it ever did for me was compromise the functioning, good things, given the list of side effects it has.
    You being allergic to so many things, in my eyes is spirit telling you to look for alternative healing. Itโ€™s a reaction to stop the poisoning. I truly believe it is a part of the puzzle and I experienced the same. You know I am an optimist and an empath. I donโ€™t sense that this is your time, so hold on to that white feather for a bit longer my friend. I am sending love and healing your way and keep you posted of what I find and your first session this week.
    Chin you, this is not your time and you are needed here. Xoxo in light and love โค๏ธ

    • Mark Lanesbury

      Sorry dear lady, I have been a little distracted ๐Ÿ˜‚ ๐Ÿคฃ And thank you for your lovely words, a healing in themselves โค๏ธ ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿฝ
      The next post I just published should explain a little more. The 21st century is gone, so much so that I attempted breakfast this morning, the same one I usually have, and my body started to react to it and it is organic. Mind you, I’m in trouble for the next 12 months or so as the adrenal deficiency from that medication can have a very long list of problems to deal with let alone my immune system has really left the building and I think time will be the greatest healer. Mind you, your offer of distance healing is most certainly welcome my friend, at the moment I feel as if 10 trucks have run over me and backed up to try again. The fatigue from the medicine and literally no sleep at all for the last few days has really sent the energy levels way down.
      And the white feather has indeed been returned to its drawer, too many people left to bother I think ๐Ÿ˜‚ ๐Ÿคฃ
      Thank you Rhapsody, love and blessings appreciated greatly. I shall return a few after some sleep ๐Ÿ˜€ โค๏ธ ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿฝ ๐Ÿฆ‹ ๐Ÿ˜‚ ๐Ÿคฃ

      • Just read and commented my friend. ๐Ÿ˜ŠI will send you a special healing tonight and have a post scheduled to introduce weekly reiki healings for the future. Welcome back my friend. I knew this wasnโ€™t your time. Big love to you. Xo โค๏ธ๐Ÿ’™๐Ÿฆ‹๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ™๐Ÿผ

  2. Dear Mark, youโ€™re on it, youโ€™re doing it, a great restoration…. be in it, and live it, and I look forward to reading the experiences and wisdom you will share with us all soon! Peace and great blessings dear man โค๏ธโค๏ธโค๏ธ.

    • Mark Lanesbury

      Thank you dear lady, it is a comfort to hear you cheering the side on…our side. And like your masterpieces I think just another brushstroke or two should see me finished to let dry at last ๐Ÿ˜€ โค๏ธ ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿฝ ๐Ÿฆ‹

      • Rock this one Mark, the great surrender…. and the great healing. Step by step. Although this time may seem horrific itโ€™s also a time of miracles, a time of the return of your true design. Blessings to you big time and great heartfelt comfort in your true alignment with that which is called life. โค๏ธโ˜ฎ๏ธ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ˜‡

        • Mark Lanesbury

          Bless you dear lady, words to sing by. And appreciated with the love they are given. Made me feel like a child sitting on a bridge watching the water and life go by underneath, forever changing our destiny with each discovery we make in the water. I had a crow at my door at midnight, not calling but chattering. I have never heard its like in all my years. I wonder if it distracted me so my alignment would indeed join that lively stream under the bridge ๐Ÿ˜‚ ๐Ÿคฃ
          Again my thanks, your energy is a comfort ๐Ÿ˜€ โค๏ธ ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿฝ ๐Ÿฆ‹

          • There you are! Crows represent transformation… and chattering away? Wonder what message he was bringing, …part of you knows! Where ever you live, sleep well this evening my friend. โ˜ฎ๏ธ

            • Mark Lanesbury

              Thank you kind lady, with messages like that I think my journey is indeed on course. And sleep would be delightful, thank you for that blessing. I am viewing the stars from the Mid North Coast of New South Wales in Australia ๐Ÿ˜€ โค๏ธ ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿฝ ๐Ÿฆ‹

  3. Wow, Mark. What you are experiencing is hard for me to comprehend. I simply canโ€™t imagine what you deal with on a day-to-day basis. Your perspective about it all leaves me in awe. I believe in silver linings, and that beauty exists in even the darkest of places. If I were you, though, I am not sure I would be able to hold on to that belief. You are a special soul. Take good care of yourself!

    • Mark Lanesbury

      I most certainly will dear lady, thank you greatly. And I only now realise your path has been in just as hard calibre and asked much of your heart. But your eyes too are smiling as is your heart as the wisdom of the journey begs your heart open. It is not an easy journey but its destination does indeed share a love beyond words. The day that spirit showed me death I could finally ‘see’ that after all is said and done, we will indeed share those people and times again and that our losses down here was to allow us to appreciate the love that holds us all and slowly point us to the most important love of all…our own, the one we deny to allow us to really ‘see’ unconditional’s truth by conditioning ourselves otherwise. May your heart be at peace, even for just a little while. Much love and light to you also, take care ๐Ÿ˜€โค๏ธ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿฝ๐Ÿฆ‹

  4. Anonymous

    This touches me deeply Mark. Thank you for sharing from your deep heart and connecting with mine and so many others. Facing death and entering a rebirth in this life, gets to the core of our Being. May you continue to live in Love ๐Ÿ’ You are a true gift ๐Ÿ’

    • The above comment was mine … not a secret admirer … just an admirer who sometimes has struggles with WP. I do have a practical question – have you been in touch with an alternative medicine breathing specialist so you can focus on certain aspects of breathing that might slow down the progression? With access around the world, you may be able to find one who consults via Zoom.

      • Mark Lanesbury

        But shoot, I got excited I had a secret admirer at last ๐Ÿ˜‚ ๐Ÿคฃ And yes, WP has been seriously wobbling, I now have about 15 people I can no longer comment on their posts or sometimes even like their pages.
        And thank you dear lady for that suggestion, I shall look into it. I was not aware that such a thing existed. I have gone totally alternative with regard to food and medicine, I only reacted to that medicine because of the preservative in it. 90% of our food supply has sulphur (220) in it, used as a preservative so I threw everything out and started from scratch. But I’m feeling that this has been all leading to this ‘event’ that has been quietly waiting in the background for the last six months, slowly nodding its head as I got closer ๐Ÿ˜€ โค๏ธ ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿฝ ๐Ÿฆ‹

        • Nodding my head with you. There is so much beyond conventional western medicine and Pharma.
          If you like, give me your email address and I will send you some breathing guidance for sufferers of COPD. I did some research for a student of mineโ€™s Uncle. We met and he was able to feel more relaxed with his breath. This is what I want for you ๐Ÿ’›

          • Mark Lanesbury

            Thank you Val, it is very appreciated. I shall send my email via our last contact (which actually should have my email address at the top of it?) If not, let me know and I’ll resend ๐Ÿ˜€ โค๏ธ ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿฝ ๐Ÿฆ‹

        • ๐Ÿ’›๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ’›

          • Mark Lanesbury

            Email received, and thank you kindly. And you wouldn’t believe its timing. Read my new post, I most certainly have to learn to breath again, just not quite the way I expected dear lady ๐Ÿ˜€ โค๏ธ ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿฝ ๐Ÿฆ‹

    • Mark Lanesbury

      Thank you for those lovely words dear Val. It is very much appreciated. And you have enriched my journey with your lovely site and endeared me to become that balance that our lives search for. I shall hold it high as I approach what will be, hopefully, a question answered and little more light ‘before’ the end of the tunnel. Thank you ๐Ÿ˜€ โค๏ธ ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿฝ ๐Ÿฆ‹

  5. Best wishes. โค๐Ÿ™

    • Mark Lanesbury

      Thank you kind lady, and as you are aware it is a confronting experience…but eventually a very beautiful destination through it. That awareness of our own love โค๏ธ
      Thank you for sharing ๐Ÿ˜€ โค๏ธ ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿฝ ๐Ÿฆ‹

  6. Wow, Mark, when I answered your comment on my blog with “How are you?” I hadn’t read this post. You’ve been through a lot my friend. Even though you’re not afraid of death, and neither am I, I’d like you to stay with us on this crazy earth. We need you here for sure. I can understand about the C.O.P.D a little bit. My asthma has returned with a vengeance since I have taken in a homeless cat. I’ve always been allergic to cats and besides being expensive, this one is making me sick. I got to thinking there must be some lesson I need to learn and once I started asking Spirit for help, it’s getting a little better. Not being able to breathe is horrible and medication that makes you sick is the worst. I’m sending you lots of love along with all your friends for a speedy recovery. Take care Mark. xoxoxo

    • Mark Lanesbury

      Oh no, your heart goes out in empathy for the cat and your slugged with the dreaded asthma. Now that isn’t fair at all ๐Ÿ˜€
      And I thank you from my heart for your beautiful blessings Michele, your empathy for a fellow ‘breather’ knows no bounds and I appreciate your words. I will stay as long as I can down here because it is a great place to exercise our hearts, even on cats that make us see something within. Maybe its something quite simple but very profound…like saying no to some of those poor cases in this world, humans or animals, to allow them to find themselves and reduce your expenses, even if for the medical side of their rescue. Mind you, I dare anyone to say no with those cute eyes looking at you, it would take great emotional strength to do it ๐Ÿ˜‚ ๐Ÿคฃ
      Thank you again, I will indeed recover as speedily as possible dear lady and return reborn in heart and mind for the change that includes us all ๐Ÿ˜€ โค๏ธ ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿฝ ๐Ÿฆ‹

  7. Oh, Mark, I know you’re being brave and lovely about this but it makes me fret a bit. Sounds like some very hard times you’ve been through and I had no idea! You’re always so kind and supportive on my blog and so many others. I so appreciate your energy but recognize you might need most of it for yourself right now. Sending good energy and a hug across the drink.

    • Mark Lanesbury

      Thank you beautiful lady, your lovely blessings and wishes gratefully received from across ‘the water’. It is an interesting adventure, like one of those spur of the moment decisions to run away for the weekend (by the way, spirit just tapped me on the shoulder and suggested that for you…safely that is). Mmm, that came out of nowhere, as spirit usually does. And don’t ask me why, probably some tall, dark and handsome with a smile to kill for is waiting with baited breath to steal your heart. And don’t blame me if you become besotted and lost to us all, I’m only the messenger ๐Ÿ˜‚ ๐Ÿคฃ
      Sorry, where were we…oh, yes…I will be fine dear lady, I am indeed focusing on what is occurring, by letting it go and getting out of my own way. I’m about to see something a bit deeper than I usually go and I think it will ‘unchain my heart’ so to speak a little further. The main reason for the post was as a helper guide for any who may be facing the same thing in their own way and ‘see’ if what is happening does indeed speak in a deeper way to them.
      So my friend, your hug is a blessing to hold my heart as it challenges my boundaries (yes, I must still have a few or this would not be happening), and will free me from…who knows? Maybe my chocolate addiction? ๐Ÿ˜‚ ๐Ÿคฃ Thank you again Kristine, and with much love and light returned โค๏ธ ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿฝ ๐Ÿฆ‹ xo

      • Unchain away, safely that is. And perhaps Iโ€™ll venture out one of these days. Weโ€™re in a bad way re: COVID cases here. So tall, dark, and handsome may have to save that smile so I can be decided healthily in a few weeks or a few months๐Ÿ˜. Iโ€™m all for it!

        • Mark Lanesbury

          Just keep smiling that lovely smile for you dear lady, it will kill a virus on contact (well you did get over it so it must be powerful ๐Ÿ˜€), scare away parking officers and attract your hearts desires. Reality will return, it is just removing the flotsam in our lives ๐Ÿ˜€ โค๏ธ ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿฝ ๐Ÿฆ‹

  8. I feel honored to be given this intimate glimpse into your world, Mark. Deep breath in. Deep breath out.

    • Mark Lanesbury

      Thank you kind sir, I thought it would help others in as much as the ‘event’ that is coming may guide another through something within themselves. I can ‘feel’ a distinct purpose in where I am going, just not what is happening just yet. And breath I shall…looooong, smooth healing breath…thank you ๐Ÿ˜€ โค๏ธ ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿฝ ๐Ÿฆ‹

  9. Hey Mark. Good Lord, I am so sorry for all You’ve suffered. Saw this over at dear Leon’s. Your beautiful wide-open heart and Spirit are amazing; as is Your sense of humour with all You’re going through!!!! My gosh. I send You HUGE HUGS and SOOOOO very much Love!!!! โค๏ธ๐Ÿค—๐Ÿ™๐Ÿผ!!! And wishes that whatever chocolate You desire most starts raining down on You in droves from places that surprise You and gift You MUCH joy and laughter!

    • Mark Lanesbury

      Thank you Katy, your blessings and hugs are all received with the love they are given dear lady. It is like all our journeys, there are bits to test us, show us that life has meaning, and most of all teach us to accept us…just as we are. As for the chocolate, especially raining chocolate…I shall learn to swim in it then and float in heaven. Thank you for your lovely energy again, may your journey bless you so wondrously too ๐Ÿ˜€ โค๏ธ ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿฝ ๐Ÿฆ‹

      • Oh gosh, my absolute pleasure, Mark. You gift sweet, amazing perspective. I walked away from You post with a changed attitude about a physical lesson in my own life. I truly appreciate all You share. And now You send me away smiling!!! Learning to swim in chocolate! I’m in! No water wings allowed. Lets get our hair wet and learn to blow bubbles under it! Thank You for Your beautiful wishes. Blessings and so much Love all around!!! ๐Ÿ˜ƒ๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ™๐Ÿผ๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿค—

        • Mark Lanesbury

          My pleasure Katy, you gave me a great gift by blessing me with your arms open wide, a stranger on your path. That is unconditional love in itself, thank you ๐Ÿ˜€โค๏ธ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿฝ๐Ÿฆ‹

          • ๐Ÿค—GROUP๐Ÿค—HUG๐Ÿค—

            • Mark Lanesbury

              Thank you very much Leon, your GROUP HUG is taken with the love it is given and appreciated for its ‘inclusion’ of us/them all ๐Ÿ˜€
              And many thanks for reblogging, may it be an opening for another soul on this journey ๐Ÿ˜€ โค๏ธ ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿฝ ๐Ÿฆ‹

              • It surely will! I love you my sweet brother! ๐Ÿ˜€๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ‘ผ

              • Mark Lanesbury

                And that love returned my friend, may it ever keep you in its shade ๐Ÿ˜€ โค๏ธ ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿฝ ๐Ÿฆ‹

          • โค๏ธโค๏ธโค๏ธ!!! The same right back to You! ๐Ÿค—

  10. Mark, I don’t know what to say. I had no idea what you have been going through for so many years. But yes, as you said, it was necessary to bring you to that insight you gained today. I often thought what you said, that the medicine that is supposed to heal you, is making you ill on another side. However, you are a good soul and the way I got to know you makes me sure that you have pretty much of those credit points. Mark, I take a bow, you are in my prayers ๐Ÿ’–

    • Mark Lanesbury

      Thank you dear lady, your words are a balm to my heart and received with the love they were given my friend. It is an interesting journey down here even though most of it is quite fearful…but that very fearful is the gateway to that love we have always sought and will heal us all. The main part of this post was that I could sense that it was going to be quite ‘in my face’ but like all daunting things it will heal us. And being such I could feel it was going to help others, especially if they are in similar circumstances. As for that medicine, last night after I posted I found a reference to it in a very highly qualified medical association that gave quite a run down on its pros and cons and down in the darkness of the page was a reference to 1 in a 100 can have immune problems and for the doctor to keep an eye out for it. Another silent patch from my doctor. I really had no qualms about it for two reasons, the corticosteroid and adrenal product are naturally found in the body (even though these are higher than the body normally produces), and the quality of life was like chalk and cheese…breathing compared to wheezing in all that you do. Anyway, it is the journey that I am looking forward to…hesitantly…ok, maybe a trepidation or two in the mix ๐Ÿ˜‚ ๐Ÿคฃ
      But most importantly I am very appreciative of your blessings Ericka so I thank you with all my heart for your gift of light and the prayers for my journey. Much love and light returned in kind dear lady, thank you ๐Ÿ˜€ โค๏ธ ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿฝ ๐Ÿฆ‹

      • Although, I agree fully that whatever is daunting us brings the biggest awakening, I certainly admire and honor you for the path you chose so consciously. You are in full awareness of what you do and of what may possibly await you. As long as I know you, you have been so in alignment with who you are and accepting and receptive for what life brings to you… the good and those things we would say are not so good. But you see the good in everything. You see the blessing behind the pain.
        I admire you even more since you are also clearly aware of the trepidation that may go along with. But I admire you most for the strong soul that shines through your being. I know, your journey will bring great healing. We both know that real healing starts AND ends with the soul. Big miracles were worked when the soul was allowed to reign over th body. I will definitely accompany you in my thoughts and heart.
        Do you know the book “Dying to be me” by Anita Moorjani? She describes one of those big miracles that happened to her.
        Much love to you, Mark!

        • Mark Lanesbury

          Ah dear lady, the heart in your words hold me breathless, but this one a very nice breathless. I feel the healing within them and the unconditional they are given by so I thank you most dearly for sharing my journey and allowing me to share yours. And you are right in that I can ‘see’ the beauty in it all, simply because that is the way it is built. It can do no other but bring us closer to our hearts and set us free. That kind of love permeates it all so that we too can become it also, in ‘knowing’ it. A healing like no other.
          Lol…I had to stop writing, your words have finally done what none have done before…left me speechless. Breathless was one thing but speechless holds at another level ๐Ÿ˜‚ ๐Ÿคฃ
          But thank you from the bottom of my heart Ericka, your words are a gift and I hold them dearly. Thank you and much love and light to you also. Namaste! โค๏ธ ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿฝ
          Oh, and I did read her book waaaay back when I first started my journey, it was indeed a delight to read as it moved me quite strongly ๐Ÿ˜€

          • Your words are touching my heart in a way that my eyes get wet. Thank you for your wonderful and truly healing example, Mark.
            Actually, I was pretty sure that you alredy know the book, I am glad about the effect it had on you.
            Sending you blessings and huge hugs, Mark ๐Ÿ’–

  11. Mark, thank you so much for sharing your journey. It really helped me today. I wouldnโ€™t be surprised if you experience a miracle or two in the coming months.

    • Mark Lanesbury

      Thank you kind lady, I am glad it has shown you something to help your journey. I only went to this ‘depth’ because I have felt it was a considerable event and with the love that it is given me I can do no other but return it so that others can see that this journey is built from great suffering but also a great love also. Beneath it all is a love so profound that when it is felt it will render all else to its place and leave us in that state of ‘unconditional’, the destiny of us all. Miracles accepted also dear lady and the love they give returned in kind, thank you ๐Ÿ˜€ โค๏ธ ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿฝ ๐Ÿฆ‹

  12. Mark. I had to step away from my computer for a moment because I couldn’t see. Tears can be healing but they can also be a real nuisance! I had no idea how difficult your journey has been my friend. You always write with such joy. All the strength and compassion you have shown to us has made a difference. We are here for you. My heart and my spirit are with you.

    • Mark Lanesbury

      Thank you for your tears kind lady, they are a healing in themselves that you have shared them unfettered and I so appreciate the love that you shared them with. My journey has been a little testing but it was that ‘testing’ that I discovered me and allowed me to find that joy within it. Even now I only expressed this part of my journey because of the beauty I can ‘feel’ within this event and what I would like to share. Yes, it may be a little daunting but because of what I know it doesn’t hold me in fear but a very heartfelt inner glow that what I am being shown will give me a love even greater than what went before. And I can ‘sense’ something quite amazing even though it hasn’t occurred yet.
      But more than that is the beauty in your sharing of your heart my friend, and for that I thank you with my own. A hug returned and a promise I shall still bug you guys as often as possible ๐Ÿ˜‚ ๐Ÿคฃ โค๏ธ ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿฝ ๐Ÿฆ‹

  13. Oh Mark…So sorry to hear of all your challenges. I beg you to look into natural medicine!!! I have been off Big Pharma drugs for probably 30 years now. It was scary at first as I had to get myself to believe they would work as well as Big Pharma drugs. Once I got that into my brain I began to see the results and I am still here. For instance, I use White Willow which is essentially aspirin without all the junk they add in. It works fine for me….I know there are remedies out there that can help you so much better than drugs that make you sick! I so want you to feel better and getting away from Big Pharma is the first step! It sounds like you have suffered enough. Get yourself a good naturopathic doctor and I bet you see results without any side effects…Sending you prayers for good health and much love….VK โค๏ธ

    • Mark Lanesbury

      Thank you dear lady, I have tried many of the natural sides and it was only because it had become so difficult in breathing that I had to resume the medicine. I would in fact prefer natural to big pharma any day. And I have in fact missed white willow, I now have ulcers as well simply because the only pain medication that I wasn’t allergic too was aspirin and it eventually made a mess of my stomach. I really don’t know how I missed that herb because I have heard of it before. Must have had something to do with my current ‘journey’ to get where I am ๐Ÿ˜€
      Thank you very much for your kind words my friend, after ‘going through’ what is happening at the moment I think that natural will be the only thing from here on in ๐Ÿ˜€ โค๏ธ ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿฝ ๐Ÿฆ‹

      • Anonymous

        Either way Mark I still send you prayers for a gentle healing and a discovery to improve your situation..I so wish good health for you….Much love…VK โค๏ธ

        • Mark Lanesbury

          And for that I thank you with all my heart dear lady. I am quietly confident that I am to ‘see’ something and be changed for the better. And at the least love and appreciate your lovely words and blessings, thank you ๐Ÿ˜€ โค๏ธ ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿฝ ๐Ÿฆ‹

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